This will probably will be the stupidest entry ever.
Sure, I will write something coherent, something that will produce a mental image in your mind, but it will just be all about the bull in me.
I'm not saying I'm bull. I'm not really saying I'm shit or something, no reason to be harsh on myself. After all. I'm just saying what I feel.

I might be of this idiot. oh by the way the hucoint exam went well. And really nothing can comprehend myself, not me or my mind. I'm just this walking talking piece of well not trash, I'm a walking talking human being, well, all human beings walk and talk right? Well, not all, the mute doesnt talk and the cripple doesnt walk.

Now, what becomes of me? I'm still the normally insane girl, still figuring out what's her little role in the big world. I'm still this digressed writer. writing stories with no in-betweens and ends. I'm this computer science student who just seemed to be grazing through the classes. her mind wandering aimlessly. Seemingly starting to drift off and think about the more beautiful things in life. loving, giving, the horizon, good books, the computer icq, and whatever that makes her heart soar to the moon.

I don't know what I like anymore. In fact, I'm thinking so much, that I don't think of what I think of anymore.Which results me to being this incomprehensible being that seemed to look perfectly alright, but a lot of things have covered the walls of her crying heart. Darkness maybe, or something.

So, ano ngayon, life goes on. No one really did understood her. Labo kasi eh, di niya alam ano gusto niya yun tuloy nagagalit mga tao sa mga tampururut niya or whatever you may call it. Some did understood, at least, some tried to, yung sa una.

I am not myself. I have to be careful. People might take me the wrong way, people will be angry if I do this and do that and do everything i desire. I cannot plan my own defense or my own little strategies, since they almost always backfired, resulting to those unforgettable sighs and murmurs of displeasure and discontent. Sometimes right in my face, sometimes behind my back. Others just shouted without tact. Better best to just slap it in my face..rather than me going about the pain of knowing it from others.

hard enough, I am also a martyr. First one to make a mistake, first one to say sorry, first person to go and try to patch things up. Forget me, other people first, it said so, puts others ahead of herself.

but, really, whats is the point of everything written here? nothing much. Just something out of nothing. Also, I tend to blow off in the wrong place in time.

"ayan naman galit nanaman si Donna"
"ayan nagtatampo nanaman si Donna"

Now, of course, it would be my fault, because I'm the moody creature from planet somewhere.
So, please, if someone else thinks it's their fault, it's not.
Don't blame it ... as far as I'm concerned, if it weren't for the overdosage of the bitch pills with fortified whine and extra crappiness, someone wouldn't be so pissed off.

Now, I brood it over with myself. usually it always goes that way. I just keep stewing my own goat. or chicken. or whatever the hell I want, then it boils, the simmers, then cools down. Some drinks this awful concoction, but better best leave it alone.
Then Off I go to the Tra-la-la land where the birds sings and the flowers bloom. When my little precense will send the dark clouds coming and the thunders to errupt, the lightning to strike and the rain to pour.
Icy, icy coldness.

I closed my eyes to the pain.
Closed my heart from all the things that have struck me to the extreme points.
I live in the unreal world.
my world, where it just revolves around love and not all the materialistic stuff designed from hell to make the wonderful things extinct and the new innovations seemed to further disintegrate the minds of people of diminishing their innocence and purity.

I wonder if my innocence and purity is still there.
What the hell again am I doing here?
Oh yeah, writing something bull--> coherent.

How to love? love with the deepest of desire, the wildest emotions. Love with the purest of pain and the grief that could cry a thousand rivers. Never be afraid to hurt, but never hurt intentionally. Forgive the past mistakes, and live the present. And look forward to the wonderful future happening right now. It's all about 60 40. Difficultly arises, but love will always find a way. It is paired with Hope and Faith, gentle and fiery all the same time. Never mind what people will say, or if the whole world is against you, you and me against the world, is how the way I will love, I love you and the whole world conspired with me to help me find you (barok na quotation galing sa The Alchemest).

Hate? Forget Hate. But we are imperfect. In God's eyes we are, we just keep forgetting. Ayan. kaya nagkaaaway, tampuhan. Walang understanding. We keep on thinking how worthless we are that we don't deserve him/her, ayun tuloy the mind over matter shit really works.
It succumbs us so much. too much. We forget someone cares and love us. who'd be there.
What if suddenly everyone was just so preoccupied with themselves. busy with everything that is revolving in their little lives to notice the other people knocking at their door. Too bad, nakaDND kasi eh. Sure they would open the door then close it anyway after the acknowledging nod.

Good thing someone still opens the window for me. Kahit medyo mahirap umakyat sa bintana. kinda like romeo and juliet. but of course I'm there. I would always be there, too much already it's sickening, making someone blow chunks, spew guts, emit a Technicolor yawn because of my hovering presence.

People just laugh at me looking hopeless climbing that window. Sneer at my stupidity.
Others warned me, but nevertheless, this determination. Was the only light my only candle.

Or so i thought.
As the candle grew dim. Inside me, the luster remains the same, until it rusts.
Hope someone has a polisher in handy.

but in the meantime. I would close myself in my shell for a while. I would just wander aimlessly in the made-up world i live. Maybe I would come out feeling much better than I do today.

....
sige aral nalang ng anmath2 isa nalang...tapos start na sana ng bakasyon.

I made a Filipino snippet.

Minsan lang mangyari na ikaw ang nasa tuktok ng mundo niya.
na ikaw ang kanyang kinagigiliwang reyna.
isang magandang prinsesa na hindi niya kayang tanggalin ang kanyang mga mata.
kung minsan lang lumambing at nakaramdam ng saya na kasama ka.
At dahil sa pagkakamaling nangyari.
Bumalik ulit ang lahat sa dati..
dahil nagising na ulit sa katotohanan
ang babaeng nakapulupot sa isang magandang panaginip.
Nagiisip kung babalik pa ito.
Masasayang nakaraan.

english version naman.

It's not always how you will always be on the top of his world
that you are his utmost queen.
how he simply cannot tear his eyes away from the beauty that radiates upon you.
And how his love would burn like heat from the sun beating across the Sahara.
And how you relish those every single moment.
But one mistake made,
made it crash back to reality
as the girl woke up from the weavings of her sweet little dream.
thinking if it will ever come back.
The wonderful, unforgettable past.

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this keeps showing up on my blog...any help how to resolve this?? =( it won't archive anything too =(

huwaaaaw
as my mother said, i got the sore eyes...yesterday.
but, i'm semi-well though, the red is gone. but i feel like my eye is uneven.
I just need to rest.
in short, kirat ako.
not to mention the eyelid of my right eye is visible.
I don't have natural eye lids..
not my other eye has and the left don't
ugh. mukha akong abnormal.
..ohh...hay
well just want to shout it to the world
MISS NA MISS NA KITAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ♥

some round of plugs
patricia

frances

...
...
my right eye is red.
Funny. it wasn't this morning anyway.
Probably something in the air...
now i keep pathetically flooding it with eye-mo...gahaha. and looking like i've been crying with only one eye, hope it heals though...finals is next week
*glances at mirror* looks much better than the whole red stuff...unggaaaaaah
...
anmath2 exam was a disaster. God. it will make the 2.5 average I have on the quizzes fall...ugh. hay
I got an 85 on the theopro exam though *jumps*
If miracles may happen, sana maexcempt ako sa distru na finals....YEAH RIGHT, the excemption line is 87.5
guess where am I? pfft 70...
anyway...

I think I will be sleeping early. my eye is just irritating me so much. ugh.
...
...
We ate at RP Burger King. ate pathetically small burger steak. gak.
But I had the most wonderful chocolate overload...*yummers*
I ate that because it reminded me so much of you. When we went present hunting with greyson and we shared that dessert...♥

I went back to lasalle to get my book and leave a post-it. and well, right on time. your reporting was almost dismissed and was I was greeted w/ a hug and a kiss.
Not only that, you, were just absolutely adorable...*wheeghee* *huggles*
well I'll be resting..
nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!! i'll try and sleep. if the eye infection is gone, i'll be back on the pc. sa lahat pa ng araw talgah ngayon pa.
kung kelan gusto ko magrelax lang sa pc. hay.
blahblahblah... =P

Welcome to my christmas version! =)
Definitely the yuletide season is in the air.
plugs and plugs
sabine has a new layout!!! =)
sam
tasj
dianne
for signing my guestbook
...
...
I'm at school, tinkering on greyson ling's laptop. finxing up my christmas site.
and then I'm off to storing my other creative talents to make one of the best sites for my version 5.
well stop here...=) *huggles* to all.

now that the machine projects due are far behind me (the distru2 mp was passed earlier) I have some room to breathe.
Not to mention I was so pissed off. I'm really absolutely pissed. Too much arrogance was floating on the s17 classroom walls that was just emitted by only one individual/thing talk about wanting to throw a book at it.
My heavy leithold's calculus book. almost a thousand or two pages worth of all those calc equations and clunking it into it's big fat head!
Talk about a mile a minute of shit.
Can't really help it that time, kept muttering expletives, and snappy comebacks to myself loud enough for it to hear. and mainly was pissed. annoyed.

meanwhile. my site is on it's way for a christmas redesign. i will prolly fix it today. and when new year comes. wait for the 2k'3' revamp.
well will be fumbling with photoshop again. =P
missing you ♥

This day went awfully well.
Theopro mp done. (with some unknown bugs..gaah hehe *cross fingers* sana wala)
no theopro.
presented 'bangagly' in hucoint. but sir levi liked the site thank gulay goo.
Ate falling apart candy cane.
ate at carls. their barbeque cheeseburger is yummy but the price is way not worth it.
X_X
sige documenting distru....will be back with a much more proficient entry soon
i ♥ you honey! *mwah* sana marunong ka ng exam mo ^^

Well, Finished the Book and Student Module,
and arapotty is finishing it up. =).
Got back from greenbelt and smiled at the kids playing on the floor fountain drenching themselves silly.
Was writing documentation shit at Cafe Breton while slurping coffee for extra hype.
and missing you ♥ *gigil*
read student cut day (sweet valley senior year) at national.
Bought christmas cards.
Looked around for christmas gifts.
Ate at Oody's? for lunch. Their Pad Thai is way too salty Gaaah.
Now back to documenting the our MP.
Sige...I should be typing...

taking a break from cobol programming *yawn*
in fact I would start early tomorrow.
dressed in pajamas and will spend the whole day typing.
home alone tomorrow. mother and father going to party
sister going to some gimik thing.
good. which leaves me to do my programming duties.
Finished Add Book
Finished Save Book.
Finished Add Student.
Finished Save Student.

Currently working on.
Student Search
Student Delete
Student Edit.

Then might start on the borrowing book.
All in a day. hopefully. matatapos ako.
I brought pc to school. ONE big mistake on that part, I hastily carried my stuff to the table, forgetting to let the guard sign the dratted crumpled form, even my name and id number and signature weren't there.
talk about humiliating myself in front of ogling people on the lobby entrance, me staring this evil glare to the guard.
I got to school around 730. all hyper and bangag. thank you for waking me at 5 ♥ Ikaw na siguro isa sa mga pinkamagandang wake up calls.
You never cease to give me this dorkily-giddy smile just by seeing your name pop up my inbox.
hehe thank's for teaching me to play the tower defense game...whoppee!! that was fun. =)
of course, everything is fun, as long as you're there...more ♥
wheegee *mush*
...
by the way, give me a message if you're my 2000th visitor okiedokie?? =) thanks.
now onto programming...*clickety clack*
although I really really really need to stop for a moment. just to relax....*heartsaflutter*

A - Age: :: 18
B - Best Quality: :: ...hyper? loving?
C - Choice Of Meat: :: beef / chicken
D - Dream Date: :: you and me on the beach, picnic, watch the sunset, see the stars ♥
E - Ex (most recent): :: Currently in LOVE
F - Favorite Food: :: kahit ano lang.
G - Greatest Accomplishment: :: marami..(many)
H - Happiest Day of Your Life: :: when I met you. And yung pumasa ako lahat last term despite the difficulties. (I passed all my subjects uneventfully).
I - Internal conflicts: :: the war of the dark and the light
J - Jam or Jelly: :: Jelly
K - Kool-Aid: :: di ko gusto kool-aid. (I don't like kool-aid)
L - Love: :: seems to make people happy and sometimes hurt.
M - Most Valued Thing I Own: :: thing? pc, digital cam, the ring from you, twin bears, cow, angel bear. hmm.
N - Name: :: donna
O - Outfit You Love: :: my elephant pants, bell bottoms, and any cotton shirt, and my platform sneakers, loafers.
P - Pizza Toppings: :: ham pineapples, beef, onions, bacon, cheese, mushrooms.
Q - Question you want to ask: :: why are discriminators born? =(
R - Radical thing you've done: :: uhm. I will have to think about that.
S - Sport To Watch: :: maybe basket ball.
T - Television Show: :: tv-deprived.
U - Unique habit: :: I...I...I don't know.
V - Very favorite word: i-love-you. haha.
W - Winter: :: Spring? Summer? Or Fall?
Y - Yesterday's best meal: :: korean beef. share tayo...♥
Z - Zodiac Sign: :: Leo.
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ara and I started on the cobol mp.
gulay, we were stumped on the files. not knowing if we should use indexed or sequential.
not only that. da fucking terminals at the computer lab won't install the cobol compilers we need...
gaaaaaaarffflaaaaaag. *sigh*
theopro departmental tomorrow...
*dances*
88 in anmath exams *dances more*
*lovesigh* got to be with you....=) *huggles* *dances a jig*

All about you...attitude.
you are a cheerful, optimistic person. Emotionally grounded (di nga?!) and outward friendly. there isn't a soul who wouldn't trade places with you.
but there is a dark side.
as the sky opens up and unleashes it's fury, so does your temper. luckily, it is tempered with a kind, loving and nuturing soul (NAKS! =P)

all bout you...lover
through disco, punk, new wave hip hop, grunge and garage, you've managed to stay true to the music as you do your significant other.
your relationship has withstood hardship, adversity and that gross-acid-washed-jeans phase. rock on (weh?)

all about you...style
people look to you for fashion advice. (HUUwAAAAT)
mixing and matching colors, doing crazy things with your hair.
you are trendy and eclectic but far removed from the mainstream(yehaa true)
parts of your wardrobe are a blast from the past. (pramis?)
you are no stranger to vintage clothing (farfie. love beads, psychadelic, footsies with high heels WWAHHAHAHA)

all about you...relationships
the choice of the multi-box reveals a deeply practical, yet radical individual who inspires friends and family to work alongside in peace and harmony.
nececssary items are sorted, collected and stored for future reference when in a reflectice frame of mind...

all about you...problems.
problems are no stranger to you. your generous, hard-working nature has left you to open to everyone dumping their problems on you daily.
while this would cause worry and stress for lesser mortals, you have accepted your lot in life with maturity and humilty (talagah lang ha.) understanding that other people's problems are bringing you one step closer to salvation.

all about you...future.
wake up and smell the espresso (yum coffee)
while everyone is pressing snooze for the second time. you're already half-way to work. always on the go, there is a danger of your high-revving engine over-heating,
be sure to keep yourself well tuned. regular maintenance with a healthy diet should keep you running smooth for the long haul.

plug: maldita has moved!

i bid thee farewell.

The Pepperoni Pocket.
The toaster dinged. And My sister rushed to the oven to get hers out.
I looked at the long little thing. It looks unappealing. But hey, the box promised a lot from this baby. Flaky Crust, yummy filling, and others.

I bit into the end crust (the part I really hate) yup flaky.
I took a spoon, divided the little thing into 2, and saw the gooey cheese and pepperoni ooze out.

Hmm that appealed me.
I took a sample.
Hehe. Wonderful flavors of cheese tomato sauce and pepperoni exploded.
I'm still eating.
*chomp* tender with yeah crusty and flaky at the same time it's not too fucking hard.
aaah junk food splendor is a healing power.
altogether mixed with online journaling and good music.
anyone wants a piece? *chomp*chomp*

SURVEY NANAMAAAAAAAN!
the things you do when you're bored...

1. Do you like having your picture taken? haha "the vain one"
2. Have you ever done a photo shoot, professional or non? wala.
3. If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go and why? right now? makasama ka...*HUGGLES*HUGGLES* hay. miss you na.
4. Who would you take with you on this little adventure? ako lang. wala pakialamanan noh!
5. What would you say is the most daring thing to do in a lifetime? jumping off a cliff and diving into the waterfall hehe.
6. Would you ever do that? well maybe...haha if I gather enough guts. ;)
7. Have you ever done crossword puzzles? yeah.
8. Ever actually completed one? oo sa mga test, pero the real crossword puzzles, i cheat haha.
9. Pick up the closest book and write a sentence at random from it. "When in anger I have harmed I regret and spin this charm. Heal this hurt caused by me , by the power of one times three, as I will so mote it be..." -->Nora Roberts
10. Do the same with a lyric from either a cd or the radio. ...Into you so far the words go? So much clearer than you hear. -->Farther down.
11. Have you ever tried to analyze your own dreams? yes.
12. Would you put up posters in your room? I used to. dragonball pa nga eh.
13. Can you sing? i have a singing shower voice.
14. Do you ever sing to yourself while doing everyday tasks? Yup. Esp pag MP.
15. What's your favorite color of post-it note? blue. bloo!
16. How many cassette tapes do you own? cassette?! marami rami may madonna pa mga 80s hehe luma na eh.
17. How many cd's do you own? konti lang. halo halo.
18. Ever bought a cd for just one song? Oo..hehe I wont mention what cd is that ;)
19. What would your perfect day consist of? No worries. extra quality time, and also with friends. Kung baga there's just one day when you can just loaf and do nothing.
20. Have you ever lied to get off the phone or out of talking to someone online?
especially dun sa ogag...EEEK
21. Have you ever written a survey? term paper and thesis
22. How about a song? I tried!!! haha.
23. Or maybe a poem? marami eh.
24. Is your vcr flashing 12:00 all the time? actually its just like this --:--
25. Do you read your horoscope? yeah.
26. If so, do you base your day on it? No,
27. Would you rather chew gum or use mouthwash and why? gum. hassle mouthwash eh.
28. Do you floss? haha I wish. paano kaya may brace ako I have toothbrush for braces.
29. Are you addicted to napster like me? KaZaa
30. How many times a year about are you sick? once a year nilalabnat ako.
31. Ever been in an airplane? yep
32. If so where were you flying to? hongkong singapore and xiamen.
33. What radio station to you listen to most? 89.9, 89.1, 97.1
34. What color are your shoes? i am barefooted today.
35. Was fuzzy wuzzy a bear? ? HAHAHHAHAHA DRUID of the CLAW It wasn't fuzzy wuzzy..da bears..... =) i don't know.
36. Do you know how to play dominos? oo. chicken lang eh LOL
37. Or do you think I just mean pizza by that? .......*whe?*
38. Speaking of pizza, what's your favorite kind? ultimate cheese, bacon supreme, plain lang, bacon cheese, mushrooms ham pineapple, kahit ano wag lang pepperoni, di ko type.
39. What color are your eyes? brown.
40. How many surveys have you filled out this lifetime? hay...marami sige na lowlife na ako.
41. Describe your bedroom, include all details. a pigsty.
42. Name one person your life is made better by. friends you ♥ si dr. caslon in someway.
43. Would you or have you ever shaven your head? i would like to try ;)
44. How about someone else's? naaaah.
45. Can you do math with ease? haha it depends...yung anmath2 exam nung isang araw pwede na =)
47. If you could only talk to one person online who would that be? ikaw ♥ . ^__^
48. Name your favorite type of music and why. r&&b, alt, rock, kung ano ano.
49. Are you a vegetarian? hahah natry ko yun I lived off veggies and tofu! haha di ko kaya!
50. How about an aspiring actor/actress? GARF. Romantic Dialogue Blues *winces*
51. What famous person dead or alive would you interview if you had the chance? God
52. Which movie can you watch and say the lines along with the actors? Mighty Ducks,
53. Name one your passions in life. loving people, helping people those WHO ARE TRULY in need
54. What's your least favorite time of day? class hours hehehe.
55. Who's your favorite member in a band, singer, guiter, bass, drummer, and why? ha? marami eh.
56. Do you use hairspray or gel? those gook only comes to my hair if may special occasion
57. Describe your favorite meal. hm.. ALL MY FAVORITE FOODS!!!!
58. What color is the inside of your head when you close your eyes? minsan dark blue. pero usually black with blue spots haha.
59. Ever listen to classical music? oo.
60. Have you ever said lol in real life without thinking about it? OO computer freak!
61. Do you find you use internet language when writing notes irl? no.
62. What songs would be on your ideal cd? hmm marami eh.
63. Say one thing you've learned today. relationships are 60-40.
64. What is the best present you've ever given someone else? hugs and kisses (true? true? *wink*)
66. So hey, what's your full name? Donna Marie Ting Lee P..... hehe di pa po..
67. Describe yourself while drunk. tipsy lang. I wobble in my heels hehe.
68. How big are the windows in your house? liit lang.
69. Do you wear a watch? yes.
70. What's the kinkiest thing you've ever done with someone else? .....wala panaman...^^
71. What's the largest age difference between you and someone you've dated? ?? baka si benson. 18 siya dati 16 lang ako. ewan ko kung date yun. ang patay niya eh. LOL
72. How many mirrors do you have? wala.
73. Write one sentence stating what you want people to say about you after you've passed on. She made a part of my life meaningful when she was alive because of her love and care. gark ang kapal noh.
74. Have you ever sailed? sa mindoro. we all barfed. tsaka papunta sa golingshi and sa kowloon.
75. How fast can you run? I ran 7 laps around the indoor track of the school for a farkingly good 6 minutes. haha with the help of vetz's running shoes. ^^
76. What do you believe in? God. and Love. and Hope. And Faith.
77. How long does it take you to get ready to go out? 30 minutes tops. Pero pag tinatamad ako mga 1 hour dipa ako tapos.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAH....haba....-_-;;

78. Do you shower daily? If not how often? syempre. minsan twice.
79. What one thing would you change in your life if you had the power to do so? sana wala ng dishonor.
80. Describe the ideal superpower and what you would do if you had it. the power to turn back time, stop time, and yeah telekinesis.
81. Are candles romantic or a fire hazard? romantic.
82. Name something you've done in the last 24hrs no matter how big or small. ginawa distru mp hucoint and kung ano ano pa.
83. Do you wear necklaces, bracelets, anklets, earrings. rings? I wear 2 piercings on the left one on the right 2 rings on my ring finger yuun lang.
84. What colors are you wearing right now? a smiley face shirt and ratty cargo pants.
85. How often do you change the sheets on your bed? once or every other week.
86. Have you ever gotten lost? hmm...oo sa hong kong hehe pero nahanap rin namin.
87. What's on your computer desk? pc, digital cam, phone books paperweight clamp i cards hehe some trash.
88. How many folders are on your desktop at the present moment? 3 lang hehe.
89. When your talking do you ever use your hands to do quotation marks in the
air when saying certain words? OO hehe OC.
90. Which landmark would you climb if you could? ehhe Mt. Everest LOL actually sa tsio-sai may isang malaking statue ni gua-nim-mah (a chinese goddess) hehe gusto ko yun akyatin wala lang.
91. Do you own or have you read, or thought of reading any self-help books? Chicken soup.
92. Ever seriously questioned your sanity? Oo. seriously.
93. Can you breakdance? hehe no.
94. What's in your fridge right now? which fridge? marami.
95. How many people do you live with? 5 of us family 2 maids.
96. Have you or would you ever do anything more than kiss in a public area? NO! nahihiya nga kami magkiss minsan sa public eh.
97. What is the strangest thing you've ever done? eh. uhm. meron eh. I was using an umbrella for a machine gun for a play in my freshman highschool years. ewan ko meron pa iba.
98. Name an instrument you've never played but would like to. guitar and drums.
99. Have you ever been on tv or the radio? I've been on tv!! hahaha. for about 5 seconds. nafilm ako dun sa street party sa glorietta dati.
100. What is the worst thing anyone could ever do to you? iiwan ako =(
101. Are you a fast typer? pwede na.
102. How high have you counted before getting bored? i dont count when bored. I yawn like silly then *zz*
103. Describe how you sleep. (ie. your position and/or how you fall asleep) basta higa tapos tulog. hehehe then i wake up in a different position.
104. Are you straight, bi, gay? gay..straight
105. Do you ever do something else while on the computer? Oo games. kinig music. nood tv.
106. What is the most expensive item you own? the pc. tsaka digital cam maybe
107. How about the least expensive? candy.
108. What's your favorite card game to play? pusoy dos!
109. What do you do online? uh duh! magsurf check mail icq
110. Name some stores you've bought clothes in before. uh marami.
111. Have you ever read a book and not understood it? If so which one? Wala panaman. Yung Dragon Lance siguro eh bata pa ako nun.
112. Have you ever watched a movie and not understood it? If so which one? 6th sense..Tae patay napala si bruce willis dun...*sweatdrop*
114. Are you easily influenced by other people, or current trends? i try not to. semi-working. minsan nadadala kasi.
116. Name your worst quality. iyakin ako. emotional. mainitin ulo tampuhin. selfish. magulo isip medyo warfreak.
117. Name your best. I am loving and caring. haha. tutulong talgah ako pag kelangan semi-understanding. warfreak! hahaha. joke.
118. What would you like to do with your life? di ko pa alam. basta I will spend it with you....♥
119. Do you blowdry your hair? pag natripan ko
120. How many clocks are in your house? 4 ata
121. Are they all set on the same time? hahah pwede na.
122. Have you ever intentionally set a clock ahead or behind the actual time? oo watch ko 20 minutes eh.
123. What do you think about when you first wake up in the morning? you... ♥
124. Which browser do you use? IE porber
125. Do you bite your nails? no.
126. Would you ever leave little notes to your gf/bf? yes. ^^
127. Ever been to a farm? Oo..astig nga eh first time ako nakakita ng farm na may peacocks tigers llamas....(eeh highlands eh wala tayo magawa...)
128. Tell me about your dream last night. malabo eh.
129. Ever seen a shooting star? no.
130. Say one thing about yourself you've never told anyone. ewan. Weird ako haha.
131. Do your days fly by or seem to last forever? depende ano ginagawa.
132. Have you ever stayed in a fancy high class rich hotel? Oo. HOliday Inn XIAMEN UNLIMITED BROADBAND INTERNET ACCESS ON PENTIUM 4 DELL PCS!!!!!!!! SHEEEEEEET (comp freak)
133. Have you ever stayed in a rent-by-the-hour motel? hmm wala panamn.
134. What in your opinion is the best advertising slogan out there? just do it? hehe
135. When they start sending rockets to the moon for us civilians, will you be on the list to go? sure. basta kasama ko siya LOL
136. How are you feeling right now? tired. medyo malungkot rin.
137. Have you ever written anything on your skin? Oo..fake henna tatooes using g-tech
138. If so what? see above.
139. Which website do you frequent most often? site ko mail, site ng iba, lj, kung ano ano.
140. What color is most of your clothes? blue.
141. Do you own any plants? wala.
142. Are things as bad as they seem? I don't know yet.
143. Descibe the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you. marami.
144. Ever looked directly at the sun? Oo...
145. Have you ever made a pin hole camera to watch the eclipse? ngek. nope.
146. What's your favorite cereal? choco chex.
147. Who do you miss? you...
148. Name something you just can't forget no matter how hard you try. uhm kung nagtatampo parin ikaw sakin...*sigh*
149. Describe the worst fight you've ever been in whether physical or verbal. ...wag mo na alamin.

Another survey...

B A S I C. Q U E S T I O N S-

[my name is]: donna
[in the morning i am]: sabog. wasted.
[all i need is]: love..
[love is]: something you share with a special someone.
[if i could see one person right now]: you....
[im afraid of]: fear.
[i dream about]: being free from dishonor.

-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R . .

[pictured your crush naked?]: gak no.
[actually seen ur crush naked]: naku...di ko pinangarap to.
[been in love]: yes. I AM IN LOVE.
[cried when someone died]: duh.
[lied]: yes
[coke or pepsi]: ice tea.
[flowers or candy]: flowers.
[scruff or clean shaven]: clean shaven...hehehe
[tall or short]: basta mas matangkad sakin okay na.

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-

[what do u notice first?]: eyes. tapos the smile.
[last person u slow danced with]: wala.
[worst question to ask]: ugh, san base na kayo LOL, or nagwa niyo na? gak!

-W H O-

[makes u laugh the most?]: sila reayen raff gling etc, you , s19 friends, mik.
[makes you smile]: you...
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them]: you...
[do you have a crush on?]: wala in particular ngayon.
[has a crush on u?]: uhm, you? hehehe.
[easier to talk to]: you, ellen. and si cat, cathy. bes dru. abz

-D O. Y O U .E V E R-

[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. u?]: oo....
[save aol/aim conversations]: oo...binabasa ko lang mga kilig moments....=)
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex]: well noh.
[cried because of someone saying something to u]: syempre.natural lang to eh.

-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-

[fallen for ur best friend]: yes. dati.
[been rejected]: rejected in what way? nareject ako dati ng friends ko and mga love ones eh.
[rejected someone]: hmm. in what way? sa friends di ako ganun ka grabe...
[used someone]: hindi ah.
[been cheated on]: semi-cheated.
[done something u regret]: hay...

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-

[u talked to on the phone]: ewan. forgot.
[hugged]: you.
[u instant messaged]: si yan yan ata.
[u laughed with]: si mother ata.

-D O .Y O U-

[color ur hair]: no natural brown na eh.
[ever get off the damn computer]: syempre kelangan ko matulog, magaral, kumain, pumasok sa school and syempre magquality time...
[habla espanol]: non comprende.

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-

[smoke cigarettes]: no.
[obsessive]: medyo
[could u live without the computer?]: hindi kaya.
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?]: marami rami.
[what's your favorite food?]: kahit ano.
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: strawberries, melon, peaches, watermelon, mangoes, cherries.
[drink alchohol?]: pag party, or nagkaayaan.
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: the sunset. I get all emotional. haha/.
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: Emotional pain.
[trust others way too easily?]: oo.

-N U M B E R-

[of times i have had my heart broken?]: thrice.
[of hearts i have broken?]: siguro isa.
[of boys i have kissed?]: ...3
[of girls i have kissed?]: GAK
[of continents i have lived in?]: 1 lang poreber pilipines.
[of drugs taken illegally?]:NOPE
[tyte friends?]: che.
[of people i consider my enemies?]: wag niyo narin alamin.
[of cd's that i own?]: ewan marami eh.
[of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?]: wala
[of scars on my body?]:wala?
[of things in my past that i regret?]: marami

to think nagawa ko yung distru in 30 minutes lang eh dati nangangapa ako...
(I made the program in around 30 minutes when I had to think of an algo then, then the algo won't work).
It is needed that one is while and the other is if...
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
*boink*
*boink*
*boink*
*boink*
*boink*
*boink*
*boink*
hay.
miss you.

nagwa ko narin yung part ko sa distru na mp.
despite well, certain distruptions from the emotional side. *sigh*
hucoint nalang. tsaka theopro
I feel empty =(

Well, well, well, despite the fact I absolutely didn't study too well for that exam. The bonus was the library books part. *jumps*.
Not only that. May malaki akong kasalanan ke ara kasi hindi pa tapos yung add ko. Leche. Tapos sabay di ako papasok tom kasi may family affair...
I feel rather unnerved, I just saw a fire errupting at the deparment of plant industries.
And we bianca and I found a wallet for joyce cruz. a frosh. s13.

...
...

Can I shout it to the world...how much I Love You? ♥
Because I really really do....*mwaaahugs*
Pasalamat nalang na andito ka nagmamahal parin sakin... ♥ Kung marami man sa buhay ko ay tinadtad ng pagkamamali, hinding hindi ka kasama sa mga pagkakamali, kundi isa ka sa mga bagay na nabigyan ang aking buhay ng liwanag....
♥ Mahal na mahal kita....

Since, I gave up on the Distru2 mp, and I have finished reviewing for ANMATH2 and will continue tomorrow or later. And yes, I am still sleepy. I am sleepy. I am way hyper.
(You know that...*wink*). I will write an update.
Sir Levi was absent. And Subprograms were discussed in Theopro.
And Me, being really really hungry. ordered extra rice at pupung's.
*takaw-ness emerging*
And I'm still thinking about food.
Being hyper makes me really hungry.
I am thinking about the yummy hamona dogs at agno, and the Stuffed at Agno.
Whoa, whoa.
I chomped on an Oreo cookie. And was solving Differentials of Inverse Trigo Fxns, Logarithmic Differencing, and other Differential related stuff. *snore*
I really don't get it. I'm beginning to like math again. Even if the problems are a total pain.
Glutton in less than 48 hours from cheska's debut, since the dieting frenzy is over.
...miss you na ♥
Oh well. Am thinking of a Christmas Redesign.
My credit card is not mine.
Well, they wouldn't give it to me.
Whatever. I-disapply (weh?) nalang nila noh.
They're just wasting money for annual membership for that wasted card I cannot even use on my own.
Thinking I will be spending like a raving maniac.
Pfft, what snots.*yawn*
Early to school tomorrow.
Read Chapter 16 of ENCOMP, Leadership shit.
Bye.

Speaking of pictures..
here are the pics from cheskita's debut.
well it's just one. Click for a larger image










Ehehehhehe....

Did i also mention I get extremely jealous at people, no matter how they pose and got slapped by a firehose and stuff but is still so goddamn beautiful?
*sigh*
wala lang.

another survey..got it from kharmie

>>First of all, how old are you? 18
>>Do you believe in reincarnation? ehyeap.
>>Would you rather be deaf or blind? none.
>>Do you consider yourself a good listener? yeah. although sometimes I drift...
>>Would you consider your relationship with your parents good or bad? okay to bad.
>>Do you like to dance? i sometimes hate it.
>>Are you shy to ask someone out? if its tended to be a joke, no, but if for real, yeah.
>>What's your dream honeymoon place? hawaii. or in europe.
>>What would be the first thing you'd change about yourself? my fat face. =P
>>If you had a round-trip ride in any time machine, where would you go? I will banish dishonor. =P
>>If you could be invisible for a day, what would you do? I would spy the CCS faculty room. haha. Or just make fun of people
>>Do you like Adidas, Nike, Fila, or Reebok or any other? Nike
>>If you could change your name, what would it be? hmm Shadow ^^
>>If you were in a theater and someone was crying, would you laugh? I rather watch the movie
>>Have you ever thought you were going to die? yes.
>>What's the hardest thing about growing up? settling yourself in the norm. being someone you wouldn't want to.
>>Have you ever gone skinny dipping? no
>>What little unknown talents do you possess? I can do those weird I pat my head and rub my belly kinda thing.
>>If this is Saturday, you could do ANYTHING you wanted, and you had unlimited money, what would you do? go on a road trip spend the day at the beach with frriends and you ♥
>>What are the worst phrases or words you would hate to hear from someone? tangina mo, hate you, fuck you, mamatay ka na, tarantadong anak.
>>What's your worst fear? fear.
>>What is your dream car? vw beetle porsche jaguar
>>Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? nope.
>>Have you ever felt you were in love? I am in love ♥
>>If you were stranded on a deserted island with one person, who would it be? you! ♥
>>What is your favorite color? blue
>>What guy/girl do you want more than anyone else? a guy who's understanding and has sexy eyes. =)
>>If you could be any animal what would you be? a tiger...*ROAR*
>>Do you eat chicken fingers with a fork? sometimes
>>If you could do anything to the person you hated most what would it be? kill them? naah kidding..
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Farkingly too much things to do. And I will update more as soon as I handle all the stress of the week. as well as next week and the coming weeks
FLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHLRJEK:AKLJSF"

Thank you very much for being with me...*huggles*
I am not that hyper anymore....;P
anyway. I will post the pic of cheska's debut hehehe one pic only ^^;;
later

Survey...

01. I see: a moldy banana peel, kleenex tissues, mouse, my digicam, nora roberts book, and cds..
02. I need: comfort
03. I find: myself very cute...=P
04. I want: na bati and maayos na kami...
05. I have: a lot of things.
06. I wish: na magdeans ako this term (yeah right)
07. I love: ogie
08. I hate: no one in particular
09. I miss: the old happy days..
10. I fear: fear
11. I feel: morbid, tired, sad, sick.
12. I hear: pingy elevator music =P
13. I smell: nothing, air?
14. I crave: hugs hugs hugs
15. I search: for freedom
16. I wonder: if he's thinking of me now.
17. I regret: yung nangyari kahapon...(ahaha reho tayo vetz, la lang)

In The Last 48 Hours, Have You:
01. Cried: yeah..
02. Bought something: uh, no. snapple?
03. Gotten sick: sick with something else..
04. Sang: yep, in the shower, fx, jeep, everywhere...
05. Eaten: yup, i like my lunch today. fried tofu *yuum* veggies and fried rice.
06. Been kissed: yep
07. Felt stupid: paminsan minsan...(ey, sino nagreremind sayo? )
09. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: ngek, no.
10. Met someone new: si LA. kilala pala niya ako. hehe yunng howe ni mindy the 'firewoman' singer
11. Moved on: too where?
12. Talk to an ex: ngak. ex-mu oo. yung isa ewan ko dun bahala na siya.
13. Missed an ex: gak. N-O.
14. Talked to someone you have a crush on: ha? no.
15. Had a serious talk: yup.
16. Missed someone: ogie.
17. Hugged someone: dami eh. si cat last. or si ellen. not sure.
18. Fought with your parents: no.
19. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: ??

Social Life:
01. Best girl friends: bianca, vetz, glady, ellen, precky, etc etc
02. Best guy friends: ogie, gling, ron, eric, jin (kahit paminsan makapal =P), andrew etc etc
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: ogie
04. If no, current dating partner: tangina anong current dating parter ka diyan?
05. Hobbies: net, writing, reading, music, webdesign
06. Pager: gak.
07. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: ewan. ano ba ako? hehe.
08. What type automobile do you drive: yung family corolla. farf.
09. What type automobile do you wish you drove: vw beetle.
10. Would you rather be with friends or on a date: both. but not on the same time.
11. Where is the best hangout: basta kasama ang love ko or friends kahit diyan lang kami sa tabi tabi k na ^^
12. Do you have a job: the ultimate slacker
13. Do you attend church: yeah. once a week and special holidays
14. Do you like being around people: oo naman (people person ata ako).. but it's nice to be alone sometimes...

Who:
01. Have you known the longest: NANAY TATAY KO OBVIOUS BA
02. Do you argue the most with: ....? I try not to..
03. Do you always get along with: marami rin
04. Is the most trustworthy: marami..pero usually si ogie.
05. Makes you laugh the most: sila ron and sila precky.
06. Has been there through all the hard times: marami
07. Always has a man/woman: bianca? fed? ;)
08. Is the most sensitive: eh, ako na to.
09. Has the coolest parents: nanay ni raff.
10. Has the coolest siblings: hmmm....*shrug*? baka si ron.
11. Is the most blunt: oops. can i not say? hehe
12. Is the shyest: uhmmmmmm... GREYSON! hahha
13. Is the most outgoing: in what way ba? pag hyper ako, pag yung mga school stuff si bianca, pag all around ehhhh dunno...
14. Is most Rebellious: donna..(ABA!) well sige ako na.
15. Is most conservative: BIANCA TANLO!
16. Is most likely to become famous: ?
17. Is most likely to become rich: ?
18. Is most likely to wind up in jail: hmm hindi ko alam, mabait namna kami lahat eh. (donna? hehe.. jks..ABAAAAAAAAAA sige na criminal na ako)
19. Is most likely to have a million kids: *shrug*
20. Always wears a smile: mel
21. Is the smartest: mami glady
22. Who has the biggest attitude: hmmm....weh? marami siguro wala lang ako maisip ngayon.
23. Without thinking about it, who do you think would die for you: ogie.
24. Complains the least: gladys..
25. Biggest flirt: ??
26. Needs a good man/woman: weh? what you mean?
27. Never ever betrayed you: friends, family, ogie.

Personal:
01. Who is your role model: God.
02. What are your pet peeves: ang hyper ko..SOBRA! di ko alam baket. May pagka siraulo pa bigla nalang tulala ako diyan sa tabi kung san san tumitingin...
03. Have you ever been in love: in love ako ngayon..
04. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: ?
05. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: yes.
06. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: ....?
07. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): nope.
08. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: war freak ba ako? no..
09. Ever been cheated on: semi-cheated lang siguro
10. Ever said I love you to a significant other: yup.
11. Rather be dumper or dumped: id rather stay in the relationship. or mutually agree to break up. <-- same sentiments.. :D <---same rin.
12. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": relationship.
13. Want someone you don't have right now: ichigo. and him.
14. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: dati.
15. Do you want to get married: yeah. in the future.
16. Do you want kids: 3 kids.
17. Do you believe in psychics: sometimes they behold to be true.
18. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: *hee* =)
19. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: eyes. and the smile.
20. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: HA? Di ko to gets ah. Ah ewan. I am a very loving, caring and understanding person. Kahit minsan di ko napapakita.
21. Are you happy with you: yeah..
22. Are you happy with your life: sana, may isang aspect na magchange, then I would be forever thankful.
23. Are you depressed right now? Oo..
24. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: Sana di naimbento ang dishonor...

I am absolutely speechless.
I don't know.
Well. Hay...

If it comes from the heart, you will know that it's true.

I have just researched about COBOL.
Things to do for the week. (No particular order)
1. Cobol.
2. Hucoint MP
3. Distru test and MP
4. Anmath Test and exercise(babawiin ko yung 60 ko!!!! ayoko magkaone! wahahahha)
5. Vibal publishing.
6. Angel Tree manning tomorrow.
7. The FB's encomp lecture speech *nerv*
8. Find my stick figure book. *sigh* I still can't believe I lost that book, I found so many good quotes there..
9. cheskita's debut
10. fill the 210 points.
11. I'm so wasted, I'm so wasted. I'm so wasted. I'm so wasted. -->quote frfom the dryad.

I found a new strat in Warcraft....It was not working well, but it worked far enough. (I don't have to avoid air units in the early game...mwahahha)

Fine. I'm fat. sue me.
And just so you know, I'm standing in my computer typing up this entry.
It was stupid, I was wearing one of my 'I look fat in this ensemble' jeans and my only collared shirt with poofy sleeves. The workers at my mom's bank said that I was looking fat.
Now my ever-conscious-about-her-reputation mother said I should quit sitting 24/7 at the pc, cut out my food supply and get a WORKOUT. What the fuck kind of a workout you want me to do? I want to play basketball. But frankly, no one would play with me, She wants me to play sucky badminton with her. Gak, I'm a badminton failure. Now my sister is offering me some lechon and I barked at her. "Di na, mataba na ako."
Then mom goes lecturing bout my butt is plastered to the chair in front of the computer, well, I told her "Pashift mo ako ng course" Of course I didn't want to.
Then she told me I was just playing my games. Well hell, WE WILL DEVELOP GAMES IN THE FUTURE. God, how I wish I could tell her I AM A BETA TESTER AND MY JOB IS TO PLAY GAMES
*sigh*
You know, I have a dream that this exact moment is happening. Although I'm not quite sure...
And I went to the dentist. My teeth are dying. Well one anyway. It had this big gaping hole when My godmother, also my dentist was cleaning my lower braces. I was scrunching my eyes in pain. and I want to howl in agony, but hey, my mouth was being examined and every time I spat excess water and saliva frrom the cleaning, I see blood. WAAAAH BLOOD!
And the dentist was having a hard time covering it up because the gap kept bleeding and my gums kept bleeding like crazy. And I kept wincing and yelping because every air, claw, cotton, pasta that touched the damn shaft gave out imaginable pain. GAAAAAAH
It's so gross. But it's okay now.

Damn if only...there I go again with the if only's
Hmm it's been half an hour, I think I can sit down now.
*sits down comfortably*
I had another glass of that yummy red wine.
Well. That's it for now.

I'm sipping wine and eating this magnificent chocolate cake from hizon's. And I'm tingly all over.
Today's my dad's birthday, which explained the cake and wine.
Which reminds me...
I might have more wine and cake than I wanted.
I knew there was a reason why I ate a light dinner...
My second glass of wine is already finished...
Will get some more...
*Goes back to the dining room*

that was a sucky post X_x
well the hucoint test went well thank God.
Despite earlier...uhm. well *shrug*
Ate chickenjoy!!! whee!!!!!!! 2 piece.
*yum* so long diet..
Missing someone...
hope he misses me too...♥

wahoo.
I HAVE PATCH 1.04!!!!!!!!
*celebrates*

Ey i need critiques!!!!

tell me what you think of my latest graphic art...

Flah.
Sir bart was absent again today.
No last period. Now I feel the only class I got on TH is fucking encomp and anmath, which is one of my favorite subjects even if my quiz 2 was a failure.
I have finished memoirs of a geisha. wonderful book.
Drat that Warcraft III patch 1.04, They keep saying the patch will be posted SHORTLY. ha, short my ass. I have been waiting for that patch feverishly ever since yesterday. *snort*
Now, I have this habit of snorting, as in snorting for real in public, which makes people laugh. Because my snorts turn out sarcastic. *snort* I sound like a pig.
I feel like an orc. *grunt*grunt*
I am such a slacker. I have a hucoint departmental tomorrow, and guess what's on my mind, you. warcraft. hucoint (going off the far distance (ka-ping*ka-ping)). distru mp. nothing. you. you. warcraft. ichigo (hungry). you. you...*hug*hugs*hugs*
This day sure is sleepy. *yawn*
Yehey, Got to spend the afternoon again with you. ♥
I know you're sleepy. *hugs* sleep well...
later...*scrabble*scrabble*

Whee....
I haven't been rounding arounnd sites that much. so pardon if I don't drop by the guestbooks that often anymore.
I am still addicted to warcraft. patch 1.04 is released in BNET.
Made NE's less uh, appealing, but still managable like before.
Battle Realm's winter of the wolf expansion is already out.

hay nawala yung gawa ko.

Another snippet of poetry # 2

Heartfelt words seemed to seep out more often.
As your eyes seemed to sparkle more, brighter and clearer than the starry sky.
The way the touch of your hand seemed to calm me, and soothe me.
And..
And...
Uhmm...*loss for words*
DAMN IT!
*sigh*

hmm pics! pics!














....
the party was pretty, the dis-cotillion (sp?) was amazing, we danced, partied, took that much pics hahaha you were there...=) that part made me very very happy.
you look so cute in that maroon polo. okay, okay, Red. =P I grabbed a blue balloon, was accused for being way excited because I got there at 630. making me the first person to arrive...*bleah*

People and dresses. (not much to do)
Mik: A dark blue polo and a gray coat w/ gray slacks.
Abz: blue polo and forgot-the-color-of-the-tie
vetz: 2 piece fading blue dress
harmy: purple halter gown with silver sparkles
gladys: light pink top over dark pink skirt.
mel: a blue fading effect dress over an aqua blue shawl.
cheska (I really liked her gown! =)) : light blue sleeveless top with intricate flower designs over a long flowing skirt.
cat: a beautiful maroon tube dress...=)
ponky: a long white tank dress w/ a white shawl.
you: long sleeved maroon (red) polo with black slacks.. (ADORABLE ♥)
me: my pink spaghetti strap dress
gling: light blue polo w/ black slacks.
fed: pink polo shirt =P black tie and black coat and slacks.
badong: dark blue polo, blue necktie, black coat and slacks.
stip: gray polo shirt, black coat and slacks.
paul lao: jeweled button down shirt and black coat and slacks.
bing: a dark velvet tank dress w/ shawl.
angel: a short red dress w/ a sheer red and black shawl.
martin: I forgot, I just remembered coat, tie, and slacks.
tasj: a beautiful purple spaghetti strap gown with a sheer purple shawl.
bianca the debutante:
outfit#1 a pretty aqua / turquoise blue tube top over a balloon skirt with a sparkling tiara...=)
outfit#2 an empire cut pink halter dress with a trailing skirt.
...
well the night went well. =) happy to be with friends, and of course...you. ♥

pluggie: cheryl has a new layout! Pretty =)

My, my
I just got back from the parlour (fanny serano's).
Peachy did my make-up (she also does Sharon Cuneta's make up stuff)
Evelyn did my hair. updo with little sparkly eklats.
and yes, the only ones there were me, and another artista
Lani Mercado , said my mom.
I saw her eating fishball ^^;;
I think it was cute.
And very down-to-earth
Although I can't stand seeing her looking at me with those hawk eyes of hers.
Finally she said that the hairstylist doing my hair was really good.
We keep shooting wary glances at each other.

Phahooey only one more day till the big debut
yuck yuck, naeexcite ako ewwwww
even if I'm going to wear pink!
HYAAAAAAK!!!!! *grimaces* =P

I added new people in the links page, as well as a new button.
can you see I am so bored? *snore*
Oh...how come no one signs my guestbook anymore? *sad*
Hope some lovable people drop by and gimme something to read *hint*hint*
that's it.
Now, off to neopets.
byeee *wave*
[10/24/2002 11:43:30 PM | disturbed angel] --->Eyyy you...check out the time....♥
anyways... that's it for now...

plugging: skylight-media @ .com
She offers the webhosting...hehehe!!!!! Check it Out.

I fixed the pictures. It looks okay. If I have enough time, I would probably upload more pictures.
My love for you increases exponentially...
yeah, that's for you ♥
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drew.ph/hashtray
akosicarlo.com

I will link you as soon as I have the time...
sorry.

sus bano...hehe di nagwork hehe anyway i'll fix it later.

oooohhh I took some pics on my new digital cam...
..


here's a picture of my ever wonderful pc.
actually the only thing that's wonderful here is my lcd monitor haha..




somtimes I can be a total nutter...=O

ayun langgg lolz.

inay ko di nasave yung last ko na entry....*bleah*
(my last entry wasn't published...)
eek!
Anmath 2 is starting to be a little more complicated.... =P

feel ko namatayan ako ng matalik na kaibigan...
*sigh*

We live our lives on different sides,
But we keep together you and I
Just live our lives, stigmatized
We'll live our lives, We'll take the punches everyday
We'll live our lives I know we're gonna find our way
I believe in you
Even if no one understands
I believe in you, and i don't really give a damn
If we're stigmatized
We live our lives on different sides
But we keep together you and I
We live our lives on different sides
i love you...

my brain is dead, its not working.
i totally forgot what was I supposed to write here.
funny thing is stigmatized means to mark with dishonor.
I really don't give a damn.

slept at who knows what time thinking
woke at early. can't sleep.
I feel disturbed.

Another beautiful day.
Ate pizza,
got to be with you..♥
Ate chicken barbeque burger at Carls
Watched warcraft III tourney.
Almost beaten insane at booty bay.
Ran out of money... =P
*hugs*
I'm once again updating in phrases.
I gave an old man a 5 peso coin.
..I ran out of jeepnies to ride home, so I walked. Heheh...exercise!

You Are A Romantic Kisser!

You'll only kiss if the mood is right and if you think you are falling in love.

Some may say you're old fashioned, but when you kiss, you see stars!

One kiss from you, and anyone will be hooked forever.



How Do *You* Kiss?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

ohhhh...i wonder if this is true....*giggle*
I do see stars....*laugh*

I beaten the insane computer warcraft...Pure Fluke. The AIs didn't stand a chance agaist the lvl 7 orges. So I suddenly charged and killed them, uneventfully,
we (you and me ) played a little one on one, of course I lost, My strategic expertise doesn't match your speed and fast thinking combat tactics. But I did give you a hard time with my family of Ancient Protectors...;), I was laughing at myself for pitiyingly restoring my tree of ages lashing your towers with 5 to 7 wisps attached to it like leeches.
absolutely funny.
That match lasted around nine minutes.
I have to apologize for being such an ass today. *scratches head*
...
meanwhile, I went to church like I usually do, (lit four candles because I didn't light any yesterday, no money, I feel like an ass) and saw a familiar stranger, yep we kinda knew each other, I've seen her thrice already, always with a smile, sometimes wearing her school uniform holding out garlands of sampaguita...
"Gusto mo ng sampaguita? She would ask cheerfully.
I smiled and said no, thanks.
She would still smile, even If I didn't buy, and damn I keep blushing furiously, because I know I had enough money to buy even 5 garlands.
Although someday, I'm gonna buy from her, because the way she sparkled just holding those flowers makes me pathetic, because I have sorry excuses called problems, although she, she was selling flowers with still that really pretty smile, and probably has more financial problems and other problems to deal.
Ang babaw ko paminsan....*dry laugh*
...the following minutes, i bumped into this song, A john mayer song. Old. But nevertheless, I was reading the lyrics at
carme's site, it kinda hit me some way...*shrug*.

Back To You

Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late

Over you
I'm never over
Over you
Something about you
It's just the way you move
The way you move me

I'm so good at forgetting
And I quit ever game I play
But forgive me, love
I can't turn and walk away

Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed
With your silhouette

should have smiled in that picture
If it's the last that I'll see of you
It's the least that you
Could not do

Leave the light on
I'll never give up on you
Leave the light on
For me too

Back to me
I know that it comes
Back to me
Doesn't it scare you
Your will is not as strong
As it used to be..
...
wala lang...Ü I'm happier than this morning..

May times talagah sabog tong blogger na to.
(Sometimes I really think this blogger is messing up).
Basically the day went by from hellish to heaven..
Can't believe I was wrapped up safe in your arms.
Too good to be true.
Downloaded the Tonic song.
hehe maganda talgah siya.
Here's also a nice song I heard at Channel V.

Artist: Simple Plan
Album: No Pads, No Helmets...Just Balls
Title: I'd Do Anything

Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
'Cuz so many things were left unsaid
but now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
'Cuz I know I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of droping out of school
And leave this place
to never come back

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again
I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep I can't forget you
nanana (...)
And I'd do anything for you

I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
'Cuz I know I won't forget you

Tonic you wanted more is a discovered song from 89.9
it was pretty, talks about how someone is dissatisfied on what the other was giving
to the point he cannot live the life the other wants for him.
all about love.
Cute. Download ko siya later...hahaha
...
I love you....*mwah* ♥

Artist: Tonic
Album: American Pie Soundtrack
Title: You Wanted More

Love is tragic
Love is bold
You will always do what you are told

Love is hard
Love is strong
You will never say that you were wrong

I dont know when I got bitter
Love is sure better when it's gone

Because you wanted more
More than I could give
More than I could handle
And a life that I can't live
You wanted more
More than I could bare
More than I could offer
And a love that isn't there


Love is color
Love is love
Love is never saying you're too proud

Love is trusting
Love is honest
Love is not a hand that holds you down


I dont know when I got bitter
Love is surely better when it's gone

Because you wanted more
More than I could handle
And a life that I can't live
You wanted more
More than I could bare
More than I could offer
And a love that isn't there


I gotta pick me up when I am down
I gotta get my feet back on the ground
I gotta pick me up when I am down

I dont know when I got bitter
Love is surely better when it's gone

Because you wanted more
More than I could handle
And a life that I can't live
You wanted more
More than I could bare
More than I could offer
And love that isn't there

You wanted more
More than I could bare
More than I could offer
Because you wanted more
More than I could give
More than I could handle
And a life that I can't live

the uncanny grin hides the tear-stained face
that pushes away the pleading cries.
Don't worry about me.
I'm disturbed and I will soon not be.

Donna

Your first name of Donna has made you happiest when you are expressing in some creative, artistic way, and not conforming to strict routine. In a large group of comparative strangers, you are quiet and rather shy, unable to express yourself, not really wanting to become involved in conversation. On the other hand, among friends with whom you feel at ease, you are expressive, witty, and quite charming. These contrasting natures make it difficult for people to understand you and can lead to friction in your personal life. You are deep, philosophical, and refined, but your extremely sensitive nature causes you to become depressed and self-pitying over any real or imagined slight. If you are not careful, people take advantage of your generous nature. You find the beauties of nature, fine music, art, and literature--all the deeper things of life--inspiring. The reserved, sensitive side of your nature brings aloneness and friction into your life, although you crave affection and understanding. You must guard against emotional excesses, which could result in depletion of energy, creating a desire for quick-energy foods. You could suffer through skin irritations, blood conditions, back trouble, and later, through arthritis. Heart, lung, or bronchial weaknesses could also result.

I got an 80 on my anmath exam. *cheer*
Will play neglected warcraft later.
got in bangag..yehey.

Do you know a part of my life, a part of my heart is now with you...
And it will stay there. as you go to class, go home, go to sleep.
A little tug of love from me is there with you.
I know I must've snag some piece of yours too.
Because I feel the same tug of love. Even if you don't show it all too well.
*smile*
I know you're sick today.
I hope you get better...get well quick!
...
1.03 narin ako...*cheer*

*scratches head*
I am looking at this version with somewhat..skepticism.
*scratches head*
In fact, I am looking at myself with skepticism.
=0





goddamn he looks so cute don't you think? ^__^
I still don't feel myself.

(I added new poems...)
Will add more if I don't get that lazy to type the things I've been writing in papers, notebooks, and other clear surfaces.
But hopefully, hope you people like my site...
There is this empty longing for someone inside my ♥
indescribable sense of yearning.
simply meaning: MISS NA KITA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cry*
Ramble, bramble.
Plug: this is the first person who visited my new site *smile*
off I go then.

Welcome to nightmoon v4.0
title: disturbed angel
author: donna(duh)
..
new stuff
-no more art for the meantime...^^;;

enjoy!

i love you honey...*mwahmwah*

testing for new version...

some r&&b songs i like...highly recommended
Oh Well-Boyz II Men
Stick Around - Someone?
I'm sorry-Jagged Edge
You-by someone.
Profyle-I won't cry
Brandy-Come a little bit closer
...
yes, anmath2 was hell.
the test was.
and I have finished my theopro paper...yehey
and will study distru2 maybe later...
♥ i know you don't read my blogs anymore...*sad*
but still can't help saying I love you......*HUGS*HUGS*HUGS*

Shades Apart - Stranger By the Day
Snow is falling from the sky - in the middle of July
Sun was shining in my eyes again last night
Alarm goes off without a sound - the silence is so loud
Something isn't right

Footsteps echo down the hall - no one's there at all
Dial your number but your voice says "I'm not home"
Everything is inside out - I don't know what it's about

Chorus
It keeps getting stranger by the day
Stranger by the day
It keeps getting stranger by the day
Stranger by the day

Going for a walk outside - to see what I can find
No reflections in the windows I pass by
It feels hotter in the shade - water runs up from the drain
Something's going on

Conversations with a mime - stared at by the blind
Imagination must be working overtime
The world is upside down - everything is turned around

Chorus

By the time I reach your door - I can't take anymore
I just happened to be in your neighborhood
I'm the one who gets surprised - I don't believe my eyes
Your alibi's no good

Whatever happened to the world
Whatever happened to the girl(boy?) I thought I knew
It just can't be true - I guess I'm losing you

Chorus x2

Dear self,
I am a worthless piece of trash that has ever graced the land.
I have brought forth nothing but pain and fury. I long wondered why was I to have set foot on earth to bring hate, wrath, sadness, fury, and anger to people I know?
People I always cared about seems to be suffering. Inflict pain! WOUNDS! HAHAH! DESTROY!!!!!!!!!
Every single thing I say and do seems to hurt people in so many ways I’m beginning to feel I am such a piece of fucking shit.
Suddenly it all becomes clear how I am incapable of loving. Maybe, I was born to hate. I was born to hurt, that is why. When I love, I still spread pain. I still am useless.
Maybe I should say goodbye….
Scar! Scar! Slash! Bleed! Fury! Anger! Pain…
I should be rotting in the flames of hell.
My heart keeps screaming to give myself a break.
If you could readily forgive others, why can’t you readily forgive yourself?
As long as people wouldn’t forgive me. I will forever loathe myself.
I will always forgive others.
Never myself.
Not myself.
Especially for everything that I have done

Love,
Myself.

plug: something i made for a friend =).
was in the mood hahaha...don't know why...

Friday Five on a saturday.
1. What are your favorite ways to relax and unwind?
--writing, playing games, tinkering with the photoshop coffee, *hugs*, sleeping.

2. What do you do the moment you get home from work/school/errands?
--take off my shoes and open the pc. find something to much or gulp

3. What are your favorite aromatherapeutic smells?
--eh....his perfume? lolz. wala dunno di ko alam.

4. Do you feel more relaxed with a group of friends or hanging out by yourself?
--i love being myself sometimes. pero if i feel wacky..friends would be better

5. What is something that you feel is relaxing but most people don't?
--gaming! staring into the PC for eons and not even forgetting to take a bath or do homework and stuff

(magkatabi nanaman kami ni former guestbook fan sa comlab...and once again I'm in hyper mode, although not much but still..hyper...giddy hyper. blah.)

Hey, in the comlab right now.
No class...yet
feeling more chipper than yesterday.

patricia: he think's his mom knows you guys.. although he's not entirely sure. I do know they're both doctors....anyway...whatta coincidence...

ekobalumik IS NOT CLOSING!!!!!!!!
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!....
pardon moi. *happy*
sayang naman goodbye issue ko wehheheheh...
Haven't posted something decent here for a long time.
Well, I got sick on tuesday.
(If you could see how pathetic I am... I was shivering from the cold (the air conditioning in rm 210 was set to freezer mode I think) and I was chattering)
And to think I was already wearing double jackets that day.
I couldn't take it so, I went home. right after encomp.
And spent 5 mins at home throwing up. blowing chunks, spewing gak, tossing watercolors, and (insert your favorite barf word here).
Good thing I'm well now.
Spent the afternoon @ powerplant. With him and his friends.
And yes, version 4 will be up soon....(or sometime soon)
Oh, people...website people....MEETING THIS SATURDAY (as if anyone reads this sh*t)
I will post notice on the groups....

As my days are numbered here...I'm preparing a goodbye issue.
Kung umabot.

ekobalumik might be closing.
So, i might be left in the void....
If anyone is willing to adopt me in the near future...*hopeful*. please do tell...
Thanks mik, for everything...! *huggles*

Things I have written...about him...that makes me cry...with happiness.

--"i love the rain...and i love him"
--"I woke up this morning with 1 miss call. who else?"
--"Suddenly the world seemed much more of a better place"*sigh in contentment*
--he quietly slipped his hand in mine...and ....and we are once again okay.
--"it's okay, you're human, i'll just give you a *hug* =)
--what would i do without him?...
--and yes, i keep lighting candles for us...
--i called and i wanted to say how much i love him
--then he was at my side on the backseat, he was holding me like he was protecting me from everything in the world. it felt so real. and i just want to die and stay in his arms forever. he kept stroking my hair and hugging me.i kept thinking hindi siya galit sakin and contentment was filling up this dreadful void.
but i woke up.
--...blissful part of this day consisted of him having no exam, lives all the way in novaliches, and he sacrificed 4 hours (going to and fro his house) on the road to be with me. where he could just be sleeping, playing warcraft or reviewing for his exams.
and he waited for me after the os exam. and he was there when i needed a hug because the test was so damn crappy.
--i kept hugging him and hugging him and hugging him hahaha...i can't believe his real. i can't believe someone loves me that much...
--we were avoiding any physical contact.(the walls have ears, and eyes) but when we got in the lrt he gave my hand a squeeze.
--he enveloped me into his arms and told me "hindi kita iiwan...."
--the only rich thing is the love he has for me and how much i love him...damn...san ka makakahanap ng guy na ganyan...
--we spent the whole movie giggling at the funny parts (the other people were just silent) just hugging and laughing hehe.
basically we were in blissful peace.
--And I ate one of the best green tea ice cream on F.I.C. (Fruits in Ice Cream) I remembered his sweet tooth and I just messaged him if he would like some ice cream.
He replied : Yup, pero mas gusto ko ikaw *smiles* *muah*muah*
AWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!
--sana nakauwi na siya...*worried* pero I know he's on the road somewhere....*very worried*
--It seemed like a pretty happy day. We (him and me) were both very hyper-happy, giddy-dorky, very huggy and smiley. Not even sure why. Even his friends were grimacing because we are so, well, let's just say ants couldn't be any more happier..

...these might be the last...

my redesign will probably postpone till early october
Im not yet sure.
but it might push on .... it really depends

hey...the start of the school, start of the term. and I need a cobol book.
Just finished Veronica Decides to Die, by Paulo Coehlo, good book. Very pretty.
I was looking through my baby pics, and saw this very chubby, very cute baby that wouldn't laugh all that much.
just a couple of times.
Damn! I was so cute then.
I wonder what happened to me? *scratches head*
ay oo nga ineng, the lj code is ready, just tell me where to place it awrighty? =)
oy, yung next code generated kung gusto mo bigay natin ke mik kasi balita ko ke tashy-washy eh gusto daw niya ng lj ^^.
ayun lang sige...off to work...

Things to do for the weekend
-redesign
-cobol stuff
-copy off anmath notes in new notebook.
-call him? hehe (*later on*)
-blahblah.....

testing?

ey,ey, ey redesign coming up...sit tight. ^^
I am feeling bubbly.
yeah, I miss you. you know that. I rarely see you anymore....
so, pardon me if i feel very huggy around you lately....
*hugs*
*hugs*
ey warcraft player, former guestbook fan
wanna play sometime? hehehe
pluggie: mooooooooltimedia-driven person =)
and I finished the project...just wanna say hello to sir and see how's he doing.
i have a dream for this term...
hope it comes true...
bleak, but hopeful....

if anyone is ever so kind to direct me to some sites that feature researches on high performace systems and clustered controlled systems, i would be eternally grateful...!!!!

wala nang lasalle akawnt...
dang.
but anyways. I still have about 90% more to go on the first part....
and the reflection paper ARGGGGGGGH!!!!!!!!!!
*shakes head in despair*

i just wanted to say im sorry,

i will continue on with the site...^^
but i have to do my research first...
so it will stay like this for a while

i am just dorkily giddy today.
hahahahhahahahhahahahahha.
hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
pardon. *hiccup*
i got an 80 on the introdb finals.
wahoo!!!!!!
so my higest possible grade could be a 2.5
well 2 would do
im worried about the last 3 subjects that i really don't know the outcome
introos
network and ofcouse
ANMATH
*sigh*

i should be shot dead.

i got the beatles anthology from my dad ( a gift from us )
and 50s or 60s music is humming through my speakers
*kewlness*
i feel very vintage.

this is the day where the world seemed so cruel and unfair.
i am caged in my own judgement.
as no one wants to listen what i have to say.
maybe one day, i will speak.
...listening to the sound of your voice, made my day seemed brighter.
thank you very very much..
kahit feel ko parang galit ka sakin =(..

-snippet from hoobastank's crawling in the dark.

Help me carry on
Assure me it's OK
To use my heart
And not my eyes
To navigate the darkness

Donna Marie:
Your world, good or bad, revolves around your family. You are determined and loyal, and your word is your bond. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You are always involved with projects and things to do. You have a need to be up front. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You can be quite inventive and quite curious.

/**while editing this entry, i smell pizza, Pizza Hut to be more precise*/

Ting:
You are an overly sensitive person, often falling into a savior-martyr role. You are very skeptical and have more than your share of bad luck. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr. You are a hard worker when you make up your mind to do a job.

Lee:
You are fair-minded sometimes to the point of being opinionated. You have a strong need to be loved and appreciated. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood.

plug: she's my 100th guestbook signer

by the way, anyone interested in making me a new layout...
la lang...

the evil in me sinks back into the deep waters...
but may resurface...

this is a wastefulspace version.
here nightmoon doesn't exist.

i can't stop crying.
..i don't know why.

ako may mali.
i'm sorry.
i tell this to the whole world...
i am the evil person.
i am the one who makes him change.
if you see me cry
it's because i have hurt him.
and if you see scars on my wrist.
it's for all the guilt and for all the pain.
....

pagod na pagod na ako.
pagod na pagod na ako sa mundo!!!

Big Machine
Ecstasy is all you need
Living in the big machine
Oh you're so vain
Now your world is way too fast
Nothing's real and nothing lasts
And I'm aware
I'm in love and you don't care
Turn your anger into lust
I'm still here but you don't trust at all
And I'll be waiting
Love and sex and loneliness
Take what's yours and leave the rest
So I'll survive
God it's good to be alive
I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for you
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you

Still love with all your sins
Wher you stop and I begin
And I'll be waiting
Living like a house on fire
What you fear is your desire
It's hard to deal
I still love the way you feel
Now this angry little girl
Drowning in this pretty world
Oh who you run to
Swallow all your bitter pills
That's what makes you beautiful
You're all or not
I don't need what you ain't got

I'm torn in pieces
I'm blind and waiting for you
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you
I'm blind and waiting for you
I'm blind and waiting for you

i am so f*cking evil.

maguupdate na ako
version 4.0 will come out september
...pero it will depend on the outcome of my grades on the course cards...
if i fail even 1 subject, i will drop this site.

i am scared.
...
...

i wish everything was back to the way it was before....
i miss the way everything was use to be so happy...
so beautiful
...so full of ♥

GENERAL INFO
Date: August 19, 2002
Starting Time: 8:07pm
Birth Date: 1984
Name on Birth Certificate: Donna Marie Ting Lee
Age: 18
Location: Manila, Philippines
E-mail: nightmoon@ekobalumik.com, angelmoon_8@yahoo.com
Colour of eyes: brown
Hair: dark-light brown
Height: 5'1
Shoe Size: 5 ½ to 6, 7 on sneakers
Brothers/Sisters: 2 sisters
Whenz ur bed time: any time I feel like it

HAVE YOU EVER
Ever been so drunk you blacked out: no, I am a moderate drinker HA
Put a body part on fire for amusement: uh, I hate heat. I can’t even shower on medium temperature only when it’s cold
Been in a car accident: nope, a bicycle ran past between my legs. It didn’t hurt, just humiliating.
Been hurt emotionally: sheepish
Ever had an imaginary friend: yup,
Wanted to hook up with a friend: hook-ups like short term? No.
Cried during a Movie: hehe tear jerky people éclat.
Had a crush on a teacher: no…
Ever thought an animated character was hot: kenshin himura wahahhaa.
Had a New Kids on the Block tape: wek!
Been on stage: singing, spelling contest, math contest, presentations, danced, etc.
Cut your hair: duh. Whatta question.
Been sarcastic: oh, you’re funny.

FAVORITES
Shampoo: clariol herbal essences , never found another shampoo as good as it!
Color/s: Blue , black, gray, white, silver, violet, dark shades.
Day/Night: mostly nights
Summer/Winter: I love the rain.
Lace or satin: cozy feeling of slippery satin. I REBEL LACE (ever since as a kid)
Cartoon Characters: not much
Food: anything edible, delicious, and appealing
Advert: what’s an advert? *stupidity*
Fave Movie: clueless, starwars, city of angels, mighty ducks trilogy
Fave Ice Cream: chocolate chip, and all sherbets
Fave Subject: English, objectp in weird cases, and not much lunch maybe ^^;;
Fave Drink: ice tea, dalandan soda, mule, tequilla

RIGHT NOW
Wearing: barefoot, dark bellbottoms, pink(a disgrace to my rebellion to the wretched color) and white striped polo shirt,
Eating: finished (Would really love to.)
Drinking: blah blah
Thinkin bout: him and my OS project.
Listening to: red Hot Chili
Talking to: myself
Watching: screen of pc

IN THE LAST 24 HRS
Cried: i can't remember.
Worn a skirt: no.
Done Laundry: yeah
Drove a car: no, I miss it though

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
Yourself: no, usually, yes, rarely
Friends: yes
Tooth Fairy: then
Santa Claus: then, then my overly conventional friends told me santa claus are just our parents. *spoilers*
Destiny/Fate: yes.
Angels: YES
Ghosts: YES.
UFO's: Uh, don’t think so.

FRIENDS AND LIFE
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: uh, yeah technically ^^.
Like anyone?: *see above question* MORON.
Who's the loudest: me, sometimes si harmy.
Who's the weirdest: ako parin.
Who do you go to for advice: him, friends, God
Who do you cry with: myself, with him
When you last cried the most: when he said he needed time, when he said he wanted to leave me. and when my mom shouted all those profanities and lashing out all her anger to me, making me feel like the most evil child ever created.
Whats the best feeling in the world: Being in love and being loved back. Happiness, lots of hope, and lots of faith.
Whats the worst feeling: rejection, hate, depression, anger, loneliness. Helplessness.

my mom threw away the anklet you gave me
ARGH!

insecurities insecurities insecurities....*sad*

are you mad at me? *sad* ...
why do i feel i am the source of your vicious anger...=(

AUGUST IN BETHANY by brett detar (The Juliana Theory)
with the sounds of the ocean crashing 7:30 friday evening everything comes tumbling down i choke back each tear that bleeds i'd rather rest forever in your arms i'd rather stay here than go but i know that i should leave as i sit here helpless don't go you said you wouldn't you said you couldn't i think of our time together is it fading am i dreaming everything you said lives on i cherish our memories i want to kiss your tears away tonight it's hard to give up the one you never thought you'd leave don't go your eyes see through my soul don't go you say as i walk out the door
...
what a sad song,
to the person who recommended me the song: it is beautiful *sniff*

wala akong kwentang anak.

...
i meant every word i said,
when i said i love you, i meant, i will love you forever...
*unhappy*

what a sucky introdb test that was, it's as if i was looking through Greek and was going nya nya...
after an hour i was just looking at the paper and not doing anything...what a fuck.
i forgot all fucking syntax of sql
what a fuck!!!!!!!!!!

i feel very distorted.

all i ever wanted is to love and be loved...
all i ever wanted is to love and be loved...
all i ever wanted is to love and be loved...
all i ever wanted is to love and be loved...
all i ever wanted is to love and be loved...
all i ever wanted is to love and be loved...
....all i wanted was someone to care...
....

now i am on limbo
i see no clear path.
*tremble*
i'm just wasteful space.
non existent to this place.
not existing in your &heart;
i shiver in the coldness.
i long for your caress, you warm touch
that seem make my molecules swim dizzyingly in a pool of sweet desire.
now cold air sweeps through me,
the tears stains on my cheeks became visible.
my whole world could've shattered in that instant...
now as you are not here.
left, with not much of a goodbye.
and it is just hours since you said that you needed space.
that you needed time.
because you cannot stand the pain
of looking through the tears in my eyes....

i am wasteful space.
wasteful space in this world...
to them i will mean nothing.
i'm just a stupid not-so-ordinary girl.
i might as well be non-existent
who will be nice enough to care...
i don't have anything to dream
dreams no one whom i could share.
i'm just wasteful space.
never fitting in.
never will be anything in any place.

i don't see myself as myself. bitterness and tear stains have been my friend. i will always lurk in the depths of darkness.
sunshine and bright eyes were dimmed.
rainfall and black clouds reign.
life diminishing
and soon the soul vanishes to vapor.
and the world would continue on.

I am a STORY TELLER

I am a natural story teller, and tales unfold in my mind almost without thought. I can entertain myself by reading a book that exists only in my head, which might make me seem distant from people at times.

...but how come i haven't finished any story ????
(^^;;) i was a born procrastinator......

thankie more to the ff people
therese, rinaldo, katrina, sheila, caro, cathy, leslie, jq, sally,
si VETZ nga pala putek nakalimutan ko haaay (XX ,) bastos,
and to ALL THE PEOPLE WHO GREETED ME THAT I FORGOT! (i'm 18 and getting more senile than ever)
thankie for the wonderful card from ogie, yan yan, mario, ron and love, gling (chinese mo bano na! eheh), lj, jr, raff, and kerwin.
and thank you for the card and the wonderful ring *grins* *mwah* *hugs*
and thankie frances for the incubus sticker and the card *hugsz*
happy birthday to juventus! ahahha libre ng makimi!
the day went by with us stuffing ourselves with the yummy chocolatey marshmallowy filled cake and chocolate shavings with huge chocolate marshmallows...*yum* at the gallery.
and i still couldn't believe how jr had managed to eat almost 2 and 1/2 slices of cake. (^^;;)
yun lang...