I am a STORY TELLER

I am a natural story teller, and tales unfold in my mind almost without thought. I can entertain myself by reading a book that exists only in my head, which might make me seem distant from people at times.

...but how come i haven't finished any story ????
(^^;;) i was a born procrastinator......

thankie more to the ff people
therese, rinaldo, katrina, sheila, caro, cathy, leslie, jq, sally,
si VETZ nga pala putek nakalimutan ko haaay (XX ,) bastos,
and to ALL THE PEOPLE WHO GREETED ME THAT I FORGOT! (i'm 18 and getting more senile than ever)
thankie for the wonderful card from ogie, yan yan, mario, ron and love, gling (chinese mo bano na! eheh), lj, jr, raff, and kerwin.
and thank you for the card and the wonderful ring *grins* *mwah* *hugs*
and thankie frances for the incubus sticker and the card *hugsz*
happy birthday to juventus! ahahha libre ng makimi!
the day went by with us stuffing ourselves with the yummy chocolatey marshmallowy filled cake and chocolate shavings with huge chocolate marshmallows...*yum* at the gallery.
and i still couldn't believe how jr had managed to eat almost 2 and 1/2 slices of cake. (^^;;)
yun lang...

another round of thanks they so richly deserve...
kathleen ngo & yu, karlie, rose ann, arapotty and miwa, abz and cheska, angel and fed, cat, carla, cheska, harmony, kristine, shelyn, melissa, jantzen, pamie, nature lover, sheryll, joana chuakaw, tasj, frances and i'll post it if i miss anyone...ehehhe.

thank you all...for remembering my birthday
precky, balean, marien, achi cindy, tatay gling, ponky, bianca, ann, ginnalou, mik,
peter, jenny, kenshi ♥, rachel bruha, ladyanne, siopao, ronnerd...am i forgetting anyone? ehehehe
*happy*

update:
7:infinity
and my last win is my bestest time (bestest? ^^;;)
24 mins @booty bay
still slow...but better than an hour...
thank you for the greetings...
jenny
Y2j
bianca
my various aunties
kenshi ♥

ahahaha my sister gave me the jessica zafra shades that i wanted for a birthday gift! *lolz*
thankieeeee!!!!!!!!

another batch of advance greeters (weh?)
fed.
blueice^
peter.
bes dru.
and someone greeted me a belated...
Tuna (^^;;)
----
i have been engrossing myself in sophie's world. and i have been stuffing myself with a wannabe pretzel. and the yummiest chocolate crinkles.
i went to a cousin's baptism and saw her brother, which i saw (well, he saw me) in kfc while i was with him.
today's his birthday ( happy birthday jordan! mas matanda ka na! well by 1 day anyways...)
he introduced to me his girlfriend. and gave me a meaningful, sly glance.
i instantly placed a finger to my lips and he grinned, patted my shoulder in assurance and kept quiet.
so while we cousins talked (ngek, i sound like a goon) we caught each other's eye again and laughed.

jordan: dapat bigay mo ako ng Php500....(knowing i would refuse)
me: sige lang! *laughs*

have to slap myself to get to reading for jin's reflection paper, which i agreed to do for 50 pesos worth of fishballs...*yum* sarap talgah ng fishballs ni manong ^^
anyway, that's it for now.

thank you caro, pia, and cathy, for the wonderful surprise...*HUGS*HUGS*HUGS*
the pizza is *yummy* =)
bacon cheesburger....
glad someone remembered my birthday....
thank you for the advance greeting...
stip.
(hahaha siya lang eh lolz)

books im currently reading...
-sophie's world
-word made flesh

malas talagah kanina...
i was inches away from the jeep when two office workers snuggled themselves on the last two seats of the only jeep that routes near my house. what a fuck.
and a guy inside eyed me with pity.
i hate pity.
i walked home with the rain water sloshing my sneakers and reaching to the midknee of my jeans and topped off with questions.
what is the meaning of my life?
why was i in this world?
why is the world made?
why do we have to live such monotonous lives? we are born, we had a few good times of childhood, some didn't, we go to school for almost 20 years (25 or so if you go to masters, if you want to be a doctor, a lawyer or whatever), get to the workplace, and work the hell out till you die.
so what is our lives? if we were to do such, we have one life, and spending it it such a fashion might lead to regret. won't we?
our norm has been design and created this way, to survive, to live...
but is it for happiness? for the joy and the love?
In fact, as people grow, their selfishness grows, greed. materialistic greed. other have pressured themselves too much to get what they want. and in anguish they are, when they fail.
it is normal to fail. for me.
it is a way of life.
why am i here? what is my mission? what must i complete?
why am i always wrong, when i think what i am doing right?
why do i love and care so much?
why am i gullible?
why wasn't i strong? why do i have to shed tears everytime i feel hurt well up my heart?
why do i always fear people wouldn't love me?
why am i always scared people will not care if i die..if i would disappear...
why couldn't i feel secure...that someone is always there...

Because everything is nothing,
and emptiness isn't everything,
this reality is really just a fucked up dream,
with the flesh and the blood that you call your soul,
flip it inside out, it's a big black hole,
take your money burn it up like an asteroid,
possession, though you're never gonna feel the void,
take it away and LEARN YOUR BEST LESSON
the HEART, the SOUL, the LIFE, the PASSION...

--between angels and insects-paparoach

i am once agian stuck here at the lab...hahaha funny thing is frances is sitting right next to me and we are making small talks while busilly typing on the keyboard.
i'm seem to be lost for words at the moment.
i still don't have an lj code. dammit. dammit. dammit.
*fume*
buti pa katabi ko meron na x_X

everyday i seem to see you drifting.
my tears blurring the keyboard as i type.
how come i don't see the radiance of your eyes?
no longer see the sparkle of your smile...
am i wrong? is it a mistake?

warcraft update-6:infinity

-To a more beautiful person...-

beauty doesn't have to be perfect...
smooth, shiny, hair...
light, peachy skinned
white, straight, even teeth
dresses with preppiness or even with the latest trends
beauty doesn't mean winning contests.
showing off.
being proud.
beauty isn't all about how you dazzled people with your charisma and charm.
or how you BEDdazzled anyone with your seductiveness and sexiness.
beauty doesn't mean you have to be popular.
the way people flock to be your friend.
the way they want to hang with you because you're cool.

what beauty really is...
isthe goodness of one's heart.
the giving of time to teach and to learn.
to help and to share our own creative talents.
to accept people in their flaws and their self.
long warm talks of nothingness and seriousness.
hugs and kisses, holding hands, looking into the eyes of pure love.
beauty is being able to be unjust, forgiving and kind.
more of abstract, unseen, that runs through our veins and our souls.
and felt by our essence, our spirit,
that really makes us alive...
never on material things.
beauty is more of impurities that is mixed to weave a beautiful band of delightful goodness.
that is you...
you are so beautiful, in so many ways....
....

introos was a doozy.
because of that test, i have neglected the yearbook comittee of my old school
and the lscs GA...
tasj: we are so dead...ke stechu (--;;)
not much to say....*sigh*
brain dead from all the exams.
and other uneventful experiences that has happened throughout this weekend.
but, is recupriating.

looking at my angel quiz...
i am *loved* ...♥
how very right...*contentment*

i wish i could take it back...
i want to take it back, the things i say
the stupid things i say.
now i feel so ugly.
i am a wrecker of people's feelings...
i'm so selfish...
......

I'm a Curious Kitten!


What kind of ANGEL are you?
Quiz made by Angela

instead of studying..sumasagot nalang ako ng quiz.

funny thing that happened today:
i was searching the fridge for something to eat and i came across a bowl of fruit.
thinking it was apples, i took one, closed the fridge, and took a bite.
*crunch*crunch*
what the...
it was bland and tasted funnny.
i nibbled around it a bit more, and i panicked.
this isn't apples!
i examined the little piece of thing and concluded it was green mangoes.
but it wasn't sour
so i gave up and toss the piece of fruit-thingie into the garbage.
and just about 20 minutes ago, i saw my mother cooking beef.
and i saw the funny looking fruit...in the pan rattling together with the beef and peas.
which ended my mystery.
it was potatoes.
(^^;;)

i have failed...miserably in my test.
i have failed you.
*sadness*

frustrations from anmath is less diminished due to tutoring sessions. i was taught by one of the hardest and the best teachers i had... him
thank you very much :) *hugs* i feel more confident with limits now. than i was then all cowering like mad. i don't even know what a one side limit is then at all, now i know...and i know about the absolute value thingies :) *thumbs up* now i just have to solve more problems from leithold's wonderful book *deep deep sarcasm*. and for once. when i'm getting it right, i am suddenly beginning to enjoy the freaking subject... (for now, as i'm getting a@#&*^!#& out of derivatives. HER terms are WAAAY too TECHNICAL for my not-so-beautiful-mind to understand. i'm a programmer thing, not a mathematician wannabe. )
and in soccer. we played the whole field and my other shoe was a little loose and i knew it was gonna get away from my feet, but i didn't stop to tighten up the knots, so when i kick the ball a few minutes later, i also kicked the shoe away from my feet and it rolled on the grass in three consecuitive cycles (if it flew up in the air i would absolutely die or crumple over in laughter.) vetz was laughing her head off and precky was grinning and i was running and wheezing to catch up to the runaway (rollaway?) shoe.
talk about kooky.
and once again pot-su nanaman network exam ko =(.
i will promise myself to really really really do good for my ANMATH exam tomorrow...
i cannot fail you =( i will not fail you. =(

will morph into caffeine-induced donna in the next two hours or so

before i go busy myself with my network haha didn't exactly do anything on the list...shameful.
didn't beat the ai's stupid.
i did review for network, but slept on it damn what a moron.
i didn't even flipped my notebook for anmath.
and i didn't buy those jessica zafra frames (^^;;)
but i did go to church involvement.
i made something for him.
hope you like it Ü
...somtimes words just isn't enough.
to say everything i want to say...

i keep on forgetting to place this post as a sign of respect to that memorable day...
yes. july 11 was a great day to all c2t4 s18 ST students. (well some anyways), it was a tribute to a figure (father figure? ^^;;) we all know and respect well. so every guy was decked out in their most fatherly wear, consisting of long-sleeved shirts, neckties, slacks and shiny shoes.
every hair was combed in place, a few was sticking out, a tie was a bit short here and there, others were crooked and was strangled by the immense hold, but nevertheless they survived to tell about it.
and after the presentation inside the faculty room, everyone shook out their chokers unbuttoned the cuffs of their shirts and proceeded to the lobby and mingled, read newspapers and basically looking very much like him.
so what is this day anyway?
father's day? close. but not close enough.
that day, july 11, is the day we celebrate...
G-DAY.
(also known as gling day ;) )

hmmm......*wasteful posting*

added rocky and eky's site to the list.
yun lang po

curse these long weekends,
you must think i'm some nerd who couldn't get enough of school. GAAAK, i hate school it's just that i have been eating and eating non stop i will turn into a dabianna. the only excercise my body is getting is through my fingertips. which is NOT GOOD. since the only activities i have been doing in the house is playing the piano and staring into my pc. (my sister already noticed my stubby, well muscled little fingers that i refuse to crack)..
not only have i been thinking of my version 4...
i am also thinking about the DOST web awards...which is about IT and ironically i really don't like the course so i have been experiencing problems about the content the header and of course, the layout.
in a word EVERYTHING...
i'm also looking for jessica zafra black frame type glasses. call it a whim, don't know why. but i think i look more weirder in that getup than my usual blue-red frames.

things i have to do before wednesday::
-review NETWORK intensely, feverishly even. (74 pages of HELL)
-review INTROOS more.
-study and memorize the whole book of Leithold's calculus and wed it for God's sake (yeah, right)
-study limits for ANMATH ( much better =) )
-beat the Warcraft AI at least once using a race other than human.
-find those... ? i forgot
-buy jessica zafra frames...^_~

will blog more later hahahha *kulit*
(...i miss you, wherever you are....*hugs* ingat parati)

http://www.fivefeetflat.com
i will be adding all the sites i have been visiting regularly in the next version of my site...PRAMIS yan mga ineng at mga uh, what is the opposite of ineng anyway? mga boy...
wah ewan

i have changed my high school section's site to the extreme.
visit it here.

i'm gazing at your prescence...which witholds some urgency i don't even know what...
so now, all i can do is stare. and wait.
staring and waiting.
*wave of longingness*

blaaaark zhruuuupppp gaaaaak zlurrrrrrpieeeeeeeeeee gooooooooosssssssshhhhhblark urrrrrrrrrrrkieeeeeee
...
okay pardon, my brain wasn't working with my hands.
so i have been visiting many many many many sites @ random/day , whatever tickles my fancy..i will be posting some of the sites i have visited for this day...
http://sweetpixie.com/mystify/
http://flatride.com/
http://www.designiskinky.net
http://www.reddgrafix.com
http://kid.mungosphere.org
so i will be disconnected blog more laters...byeees

master host person's long awaited ressurection is finally up.
thankie for linking me *hugs*
but i should make this short, as i am about to be pulled away from the computer's gravity....
haaaaay
5:infinity na sa warcraft
wahoo astig ng night elf =)

introos test cancelled due to the rains and the upcoming typhoon that is no where to be seen
*yawn* sleepy very sleepy....

the tarzan video was the feature shown in the wonderful world of disney, and when jane and tarzan danced and was together. two different people from two different worlds...i started bawling like a newborn, tears coursing down my cheeks. it was so sweet. and it was so beautifully pure and innocent and so wonderful that i wished with all the longingness in my heart why isn't the world, OUR world the same way...=(

Put your faith in what you most believe in
Two worlds, one family
Trust your heart
Let fate decide
To guide these lives we see

A paradise untouched by man
Within this world blessed with love
A simple life, they live in peace

Softly tread the sand below your feet now
Two worlds, one family
Trust your heart
Let fate decide
To guide these lives we see

No words can heal a broken heart
A dream is gone, but where there's hope

Somewhere something is calling for you
Two worlds, one family
Trust your heart
Let fate decide
To guide these lives we see

--Phil collins, Two Worlds

gotta study for introos...

more than half of soccer period i was trying to execute the perfect cartwheel after seeing my friend ying do it.
can you believe i was at first afraid of doing it?
me, donna, who is not afraid to bungee jump, riding 4 consecutive anchors away, who doesn't fear the r360, was afraid of a teeny weeny cartwheel?
send in the clowns...hahahah.
it took me about some lame attemps of crouching, rolling on my back, thousands of persuasions from my friends, before finally to really roll down the field...
falling is a better description perhaps...
so i rolled, and fell flat on my butt.
which basically what happened the whole afternoon, reliving my child-like innocence and not caring if the grass was wet, my butt was sore, and there was people watching.
all i cared about was doing cartwheels...
and seeing him and smiling...
forget anmath...
there are better things in life to care about than stupid hyperbolas and elipse that will ruin my life...

i failed anmath.
damn it.
a whopping 34% U_o

classes resume tomorrow, and yes hell awaits yours truly tomorrow, along with the sidings of pure heaven.
the rain stopped falling in the afternoon and yes, being the procrastinator that i am, hastily typed last minute relstwo reaction paper making my brain stop short of its holiday and getting it into action (it needs oil and it keeps creaking at me and shouting complaints)
another sucky issue is i lost my g-tech pen. gak. i loved that pen. i lost about 6 of those my whole life. damn it. it should be atop my computer table as it always been as i've been scribbling techniques and strategies, but no, *poofed* in thin air, it had.
great, now my only weapon to school is my mechanical pencil...IT'S NOT ENOUGH DAMMIT. i don't wanna spend another 50 bucks for now, as i have been flat broke paying off that book that i stupidly lost...*eek* senile at a tender age of 17...
which reminds me, i'll be older in the upcoming weeks...*bleah*
good night.

thank you for calling ♥

why oh why do i always say the wrong things...
i can never make you happy...i always bring too much sadness and too much guilt built up in your heart...unnwanted thoughts now keep spinning through my head and unknowingly the tears begin to fall...im sorry...im very very sorry =(
i didn't mean to hurt you...
why should i hurt you? i love you.
all i want is you...
*bows head in sadness*

thinking of recent grades received from departmentals and exams...
network-35/50 *whew*
introdb-84/110(100?) ^_^
rels-don't wanna think about it...
anmath-????? 0?

*sigh* he's sick...=(
hope you feel better *HUGSSS*

can you tell i'm absolutely bored? hahah i found this on a site and frankly i have to list all the sites i wanna put on my list...in the next veresion...(which is still very very far away)...
thinking about the rain makes me think of our funny conversation just this morning...even though its just a few messages across the text line
....(unfortunately for you/fortunately for me i couldn't remember it)
i'm in a process of working on a snippet... *thinks*

the cascading drops makes me think of you, your wonderful kisses, tinted with the sweetness of rain. don't need the sun to cast a smile on my face, cuz the light beams from you, illuminating me with your love ...

okay, okay, i'm a big pound of green, moldy, lovesick cheese....
but i really think it's pretty...*sparkles*
(now you say how do i sparkle? i just do...^_~)

oh great. my monitor is going through its crisis again. i have a feeling this old thing will soon collapse and *kapoof* clouds of smoke will emit from the vents and my dad will just have to buy me the new flat screen one. *evil grin*.
after pondering endless hours on the site that i haven't been exactly been working on that well...i will have to think of a better layout than the one i have now. which is repulsing indeed.
no classes once again tomorrow...dunno if i'd laugh or cry...i miss him. :(
flipblogs has accepted my application. goody goody.
and i should be making my relstwo paper right about now....NOT.

i haven't been blogging everyday like then. probably because i haven't got too much to say.
my win-lose ratio is heightened to 4:infinity and i have been busy hoping and waiting my sound card to be fix to hear all the funny quotations of the human and not-so-human uhh beings of warcraft III and frankly i have been occupied to playing senseless notes on my 15 year old piano. which is not in good shape, the beautiful plink-plink sounds became toink-toink and boing-boing (okay that sounds funny).
but, nevertheless i have been searching high and low for the piano sheets of Train-Drops of Jupiter
and Sarah Mclachlan-Angel. nixie is nice enough to send me some of the FFVII theme's although its not finished yet...*argh*
what i am currently playing:
a thousand miles- vannesa carlton
eyes on me - ffviii theme (is this the one where squall and rinoa danced? i kept playing it over and over it doesn't sound familiar to me X_x).
also, i must be bored to death or something or something else that i have actually been trying to update the IV-8's website (i have been neglecting yes, yes, i am a bad person, but i've changed!) ...
no classes today...which is why i can spend the wholde day doing all the things i want...
it has just announced that hs and elementary has no classes tomorrow...but how about us poor lasallians?
I DOUBT IT! ><
later.

*deep satisfaction*
i beat the pc twice today...nyahahahhaha
making it a total of three....
and the ratio of my win-lose is....
^^;;
3:infinity...hahahahahah!!!!!!!!

hohoho wonderful drip dropping of rain on a gloomy gray saturday morning.
feeling perky, but sleepy. haven't been posting that much busy busy busy.
spending time with him ♥ hahaha i spent the whole thursday with him *happiness* even though its just in la casita and gox. anywhere with him can be the most beautiful place on earth. haha. *sparkles* version 4 will be postponed. (due to artistic failures) so i might be working on it till end of august and post it september. very tentative might be earlier or later than expected.
thankie for all the
guestbook
signers ♥. it makes my day seeing new posts. =) *hugs* especially the regulars ^_~
so im finding strategies, strategies and more strategies. as i have proven to have become a liability at warcraft III. and i could never win against greyson's expertise as he kept mutilating me with different units until i was getting very very pissed off but still laughing because the niceness of when we first played against each other was gone...although he still asks if im okay and stuff then goes into an attacking frenzy while i just gaped...darn it. haha. sometimes it makes me think i should've stick to playing solitaire and minesweeper and forget being a gaming goddess. >.<
lagot siya next time hahaha. i'll make sure of that. *determined*
ill blog more later...that is if there is no lscs g.a. today.

wasteful day started when the clouds were becoming gray and i realized i lost a c/c++ book of a blockmate.
let's just say she's not the most understanding person i know. so my allowance will be snuffed out paying for it. which is entirely my fault for losing brain cells and having more nuts to form a peanut gallery.
but to spare me time i went around in circles downtown finding for it.
but my whole trip was wasted when the rain started pit-pattering down like mad.
i got down at sta cruz and walked the whole way home, thanking i brought an umbrella with me but nevertheless my elephant pants was soaked to the knees and i was protecting tasj's 600 peso manga. hehehe sobrang wasted. the thunder was frightening and i jumped twiced because i felt the lightning struck near where i was walking and i thought i might be electrocuted (which is kinda good but not...)
(feel ko ang barok ko na mag-english)
i'll probably rant more in the coming days. i'm in a process of working on a story....