not feeling well.tired.lonely.depressed.wants *hugs*.
played endless hours of warcraft III till i got the hell out of chapter 1 undead...
started working on version4.0
will release maybe late july...
depends on how fast i can work.
must sleep.

angela has this awesome new layout up check it out...=)
im working on version 4 it will not be released soon enough, probably in the end of july...very different from this version and it came out pretty good..i think. i really really wanted to work with flash...but...my mind is compensating me to study another web programming language than pursue the terrors of my eyes glazing the flash tutorials and nothing productive comes out...*shrug*
i haven't even touched my game yet...damnit.
*shrug* will find some time to squeeze it in...after all my work will be finished in quite some time...
hopefully...hopefully

i'm working on my new version...although panget siya..X_x
im too tired to type
but all i kept thinking now is yesterday's (wednesday) PE, which was soccer...
it started with a few drills...the 'head-banging' experience (i think im going to need a big cemetery for all the brain cells that died on that particular day >.< ) and when 4 o clock came along a huge clap of thunder roared...
then came the rain =)
i grinned as drop after drop was cascading on my hair, my face my hands, my soaked shirt, my sneakers, the grass, the earth, and precky broke into a song...jumping and singing, i couldn't help but join in...
singing in the rain....
lalalalala...
the rain kept pouring i kept standing in the field (although near the shade because our teacher was afraid we might get hit by lightning or something) and each crystal tear felt like kisses...
rain kisses
finshed human campaign for warcraft III
undead naman =)
i bid thee farewell....

oh, there is one thing i hate in the world...
i'm a stupid speller...
make that waaaaay stupid.
i have seen much typographical errors during my whole blog fest
i can't even remember how to spell l-i-a-r (vetz pointed out to me when she was reading my blog..
vetz: ey mali spelling mo ng liar
me (glances at screen):l-i-?-r? aah a? oo nga ano *boinkself*
vetz: hehe

don't worry i already covered up my mistake (changed it into the right spelling nya nya nya nya nyaaaa)

thankie dianne for linking my site *grins*

oh and pardon for the super long entry i entered last night... (wth was i thinking?) i know you're probably bored to death by my consisent rantings and ravings about all things under the sun...hoho. sue me. ooh blaaaah oooh blaaaaaaah eeeeeek eeeeeeeeeek
i finished my rels assignment and the final ERD and basically im unstoppable...
and i will gather all free time in the world to basically play this game
the ultra cool mix of Battle Realms and Diablo combined into this highly enhanced game of warriors, wars, and magic complete with astonishing 3d graphics (i sound like an ad) but it's true!

well i have to get some sleep. soccer is tomorrow and i heard we're going to be playing across fields and not 1/4 of it *WAAH*

wan an phung iyow! (good evening, my friends in chinese) *shrug* sue me for still being so wasted...

dianne's site is the newest additions to my link list ( i love the way it sounds link list ^______^ ) beautifully crafted site with a killer flash intro, me? what about me? yeah, yeah, i know i've been trying to produced something flash since last year but failed n times. okay i have some feeble attempts but it sucks...tremendously...

at least i stopped saying *fun* (heheh vetz is particularly happy with the prospect, i know she's been wanting to pound me every time i say that 3 letter word *grins sheepishly*)

i have this annoying habit of blogging when my time is near the disconnection time of the dlsu account. which is 59:10...what a drag.
*yawn* the start of the school week is tomorrow *ugh* and from what i recalled, sir network said the exam results will be given. woe is me, frankly, all my tests last week were doozies (is there such a word? *shrug*) everything...from PE - anmath (i don't even want to remember the dreaded anmath exam...*makes cross*) and yes...i have been busying myself for the upcoming version of my site.
which is still waaaaaaaay long (maybe around september or something) but it's one of my top priorities besides schoolwork (i'm such a liar... ^_~)

and yes, i am now disconnected from the web....

during my mall trip with my shopaholic sister this afternoon, my feet were hurting as she kept on looking for shoes ( i don't even think she knows what kind of shoes is she looking for...). i kept circling around her like a vulture ready to eat dead prey. but i regained control and bored myself looking at shiny mary janes, loafers, sneakers and different colored sandals. don't get me wrong...i can be a mall rat myself, but if you spent an hour just browsing shoe stores, you're ready to wail and whine like a six year old.

good thing for me i didn't, but it was totally unfair i spent only about 5 minutes tops searching for a clipart CD as my sister taps her foot impatienly as i browsed through the selection...well computers are part of my life. hers is shoes and photography or whatever...it's not my fault everything PC comes in a square container, or somewhat rectangular in being...(except CD's or the mouse) i didn't even had enough time to browse through the new games and literally she was dragging me out of the store

where's democracy when you need it?

so while she walks, i thought up some things that i want but i couldn't get it for some reason or another...

things i want/want to do, that i know i can afford, but will be flat broke after, so i can't buy/do it...right now.
-tremendous amounts of silver rings and earrings
-eating at waiying 5 times a week
-malling
-colorful post-its
-engraved parker
-any book i might find interesting
-world cup match [mc float and mc shaker fries]
-PC gaming / art / miscellaneous CDs
-AUDIO CDs (no pirated)
-compilation CDs (thank God nicky's cd-r broke down *control*)
-5 g-tech pens
-beanie babies

things i want to do, i know i can do it, but too lazy to comply
-tune up the piano
-get my computer fixed (ITS STILL WORKING! although it has some bugs! BUT I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT IT *WAAAAAH*)
-get the breakdown site fixed
-my reaction paper due for wednesday (SLACKER!)
-final ERD for introdb also due wedsnesday (SLACKER!)
-get off from this computer chair to do REAL work

here are some things i really want to have, but my parents don't want too because, well, ask them...
-a laptop
-cable connection
-dsl connection
-guitar
-drums [ehehe]
-a flat screen monitor
-a new PC
-play station 1 and 2
-XBox
-my own car [go figure]

and yes officialy my mind is distorted.
i bid buenos noches senyoritos and senyoritas.

tasj's killer site is up! and i absolutely bow down to her! and i love my anime resemblance...although i wish i could be as pretty as it....*grin*
i'll blog more later

at long last i could finally call *peace* with myself, as the hell week is over, and the residues of assignment have left to a relstwo reaction paper (which is very easy i might do it tomorrow), and a revision of our final ERD for database...aaah sheer bliss, not only that i got to watch scooby-doo on the new greenbelt cinema which is costly...around 150 bucks *ouchie*. then waiting for the three o clock show, my gamer's eye settled on something that is rotating fast 360s and i went to check it out...
it was a new game at timezone called r360. areal life simulation game that that has airplane chases on mid-air while you're controlling the plane to where it wants to go. as in CONTROLLING it. not those sissy left right things...we're talking about major somersaults and n degree turns ranging from 0-360 on all directions. basically my mouth is semi-drooling and i kept begging my mom if i don't play it right now, i would die, disintigrate, *poof* in thin air...(the game costs like 60 bucks) she said, okay stop whining and we'll go back after the movie....
after the movie (which is good, though i had a hard time swallowing the fact sarah michelle's role here is way too feminine and she should be kicking more @$$ than primping up like a total airhead)
i held firm and reloaded the semi-bent timezone card we own, and marched boldly to the gyrating wheel, and gave him my card... and stepped inside the ride....yahahahaha
the feeling during the middle of the game...gravity and me is like north and north magnets...repelling each other took tremendous amounts of force...and funny because of my flapping elephant pants the ride was stopped (due to sensors) and he told me
man : i reset nalang natin ha?
me : sige lang...(folded up my pants)
(second time around)
the feeling: abosulte merciful hell and heaven at the same time...
after two minutes and the plane crashed...
feeling: giddy with excitement, happy, wobbly, and dizzy...

although i may try it again sometime soon...Ü i will wear shorts next time nyahahaha
i suggest you try it or miss half your life...*joke*

i will swear anmath for the rest of my life. and if i had the machine to go back in time i will murder all the spiteful people whoever created such brutal consequences for us to learn that will actually teach me zip about life.(like archemedes, newton, and all those people who invented such damnation) (or computers that matter)
and because of that atrocity, i will probably be a pending grad student because i kept on failing the anmath series..( woe is me ) ...
i can't stand to hear the right answers , and as much as possible i want to forget the awful incident of me graphing and calculating all those hyperbolas ellipses and parabolas until i found no perfect square equations and i know i was in trouble.....
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGH........................................
chill donna, chill. you still have an introdb test tomorrow...
ARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH...................
*hyperventilates* i need to study later chapters 1, 2 , 4, and 5....argh
i'm not making any freaking sense....

i just finished my network exam...what a woozie. 50 multiple choice questions and well it wasn't so easy...it wasn't exactly very hard. but it still gives my heart a flutter especially when i just randomley selected a few of my answers using the eeny-meeny-miny-moe technique...so im here chilling at the comlab waiting for my ride. and i wanted to rest and relax before another test will come... (ANMATH X_x)
and i've been working on several different layouts for version 4 i came up with a few ideas and i might use some of them in the near future to come if i get sick of this layout ehehehe.
adios!

i hate g304a && b's comlab.
i am already conscious about my uhh, height defficiency but guess what? they placed their monitors atop the cpu, and thus towering over me a good 5 or six inches when sitting down...craning my neck in an awed fashion and making it stiff and sore.
so sue me im a net freak addict who doesn't feel the day is complete until she opens up the pc and surfs the web even if its for garbage and of course posting in this blog...*grin* and some big big *hugs* *big smile*
anyways...after i annoy my friend jin by netsending hehe ill go visit other sites that finds my fancy
(Wala *wasted*) sige i bid thee farewell
*nonsense*

aloha aloha aloha...
people who uses netscape navigator should go for internet explorer not a request but a MUST.
take time to make yourselves smile by looking at this very cute pusit...
unfortunaly for me, i've not been able to be wholly (wholey?) myself today, as a dark cloud has been hovering upon me...and i would curl up in sleep and wonder how things went wrong. how could i be so cruel and yadayadayada...and all the wounds will bleed in its utmost glory...
thankie for the anklet ♥ *hugs*
"why should i hurt you? all i ever wanted is you...
i love you..."
*sap* ... nyt.
thankie to all my guestbook signers ♥ *hugs* Ü

i need everybody's help here...
if you don't see the otherside (of my site that is, the navigation, the tech support and as well as the header)
contact me asap...
tell me what's your specifications what IE are you using or what OS is your PC (Eg. Internet Explorer 5.5 Windows ME)
i found out this saturday the other pages didn't come out on that particular setup...i have to fix it...
i don't know it it's the cascading style sheets or something
but please help me out by sending the email form found here....
SEND E-MAIL FORM
[if there are someone who seems *confused* with my forms here's a brief explanation]

you: -->that is you! put ya name!
m@il: -->e-mail !
blah blah:--->place your comment thingie here
?@*#!!-->confirmation button press if your done with the form

help me out here okay? its not easy hehe. i caught 2 people misusing the form cuz i received 2 blank mails and i am very pissed off. don't do that. don't start clicking the button like crazy.

if it works well...send me as well...to know what works or its just my stupidity because i see it perfectly fine here at home...
ARGH....

why neglect the guestbook?
it didn't even do anything wrong to you
and the url is there *points at h t t p : / / 4 1 1 * ...plain as day...
is there no justice in this cruel world?
or the people really hate writing? hehehe joke!!!
make me happy sign the guestbook !!!!!!!!! thankieeeeeeee Ü

too much assignments, too much! *racks brain*
and i think im starting to get a cold, i've been sneezing my head off the whole day. we (jin, vetz, and I) started our church involvement today, and guess what? of course, like any other starting employee we got down into the dirty business.
janitorial work that is.
we wiped and polished the altar, as well as cleaned the the choir steps, the gates and other marble arches. we had a good time, although we tired ourselves laughing. we even wanted to volunteer to scrape the candle wax drippings from the candle holders hehe..
the nice lady let us go early and i lit 2 candles and went to bert's and i listened to a few solutions for some linear algebra problems consisting of hyperbolas and elipses and went home to think about my version4 (too early eh? i had a few ideas brewing in my brain) and experimented using cut off large images and placed them into tables...
they look sucky because they have seamless gaps in between each cell image and waaaaah it looks hideaous *bleah*.
i have to study for anmath...
get that erd for introdb into action
and review for network, soccer, and rels quizzes all happening on wednesday
it's enough to drive me up the wall
not to mention my nose is clogged up with unforeseen mucus *gag*.
huhhhhhh i need some r&&r

i've added new poetry
and i almost had forgotten about blueice's site. and his site rocks...although it's a bit empty at the moment hehe ^^;;
does anyone read my jumbled thoughts on this page anyway? hehe or i should just stick to updates here? ahaha
introdb awaits me...*ick*

made an email form for the lazy ones out there...
added a missed out poem for the poetry section
and fixed more clutters here and there...
it looks like as if ill be fixing clutters until the next version of my site
added a new link in the inspirations....
mela's site rocks!

does anyone know how to change the shadow color of buttons??
is it just the same as the scrollbars or what? *confused*

you know my mind keeps on saying i should go sleep now, but i keep on neglecting its nagging repeats over and over again. its still early and i have about 15 minutes more till i say bye bye to the world that i virtually live in and sit on this freaking chair without a back rest for more than 2 months already (want a new computer chair)...
*yawn*
i really think i should go and congratulate myself with the success of v3.x with a good and long hibernation...
i bid thee farewell *wave*

tashy's got a new layout! *kewlness*
uploaded my past works
and uhmm fixed up some of the clutters around...here and there
*sleepy*

do not neglect the guestbook.
i REPEAT. do not NEGLECT the GUESTBOOK!
*yawn*

to hear my spoiled younger sister cry because of a loose tooth makes my skin crawl and my annoyance meter on high. and i am effectively trying to calm down..not so much.
no school tomorrow and yes i will succumb into deep slumber later. (and yes there are still truckloads of assignments to give notice too, teachers aren't that human, after all)...
i laughed a hell lot on nixie's entry on the guestbook. such a b!tch that girl haha. luv yah nix! lolz.
i can't stand to hear my sister scream and wail until she gets what she wants!
damn, i just need a sanctuary...
you are beginning to see how distasteful i am sometimes...
will make a few more changes towards the site...ill keep you posted...

Subject: Philweavers Application View full header
From: info@philweavers.net
Date: Mon, June 10, 2002 6:00 pm
To: nightmoon@ekobalumik.com



Hi, I'm NIMROD the mailer daemon.

Congratulations!

Your Philweavers.net membership application has been approved

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yeeeeeeeessssss!

added another linky to the site (experimentals) --> see http://411
incognitos will stay incognitos (you know who u are check it out) *peace*
its really difficult to stay long online especially when the vibe's meter is ticking away
thank you all the guestbook entry signers ♥
i will bid you a fair night.
precky: nakuha ko yan kasama sa hosting =)

as i was in the fx to go home, a wonderful miracle happened. well, it was for me, simple as it was. but it totally lightened me up.
in the backseat i sat with a chinese guy and a couple who just had a newborn baby, a small bundle of blanketed innocence wrapped int the girl's arms. she gave me a smile and i smiled back.
as i was about to reach my stop, the chinese guy spoke to the couple. (i didn't remember the actual conversation but it went something like this)
chinese guy: anak niyo? (he said with a grin)
the guy: oo..
(the chinese guy took out his wallet and pressed a crisp 100 peso bill towards the sleeping child with the couple gaping and being watched by a smiling me) : para sainyo yan, para magkaron ng swerte yung anak niyo(it was their tradition or something i forgot)_
the girl smiled and the guy thanked him and i shouted para to the driver with a grin.
chinese guy: good luck sainyo ah...
the couple: salamat ...
i jumped down the fx and the guy stepped down too, and i walked home thinking how the world still need a few more people like that.
so compassionate and caring. so beautifully open minded and generous...
just like an angel.
it was almost like a sign...
a sign that i might be doing the right thing...
*happy*

this is what i hate about comlab computers
no colors in the scroll bars *eek* X_x
by the way i'll change some stuff when i get home
hehe nightmoon relives *kewlness*

at long last....
nightmoon v3.x is launched...
more updates will be posted for new additions
don't forget to drop by the guestbook for any complaints or compliments.
thanks again mik for hosting me =)

*deep satisfaction*
this is also for you ♥ ♥

for crying out loudddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that is notttttttttt pinkkkkkkk!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGH
*denial*
but really, it is not...it's what you call...mauve or plum.
pink is this
*shrudder*
but what can i do when my header has no shades closer to the darker regions of red???
*UGH*

ah.. ok.. hehe.. gsto ko makta mga kasabugan mo e... lol jks
--gling
one of my fans who couldn't wait to see the new version of the site, along with my "kasabugan" so as he say
it will be hooked up soon enough...i've finished the layout, and it might be on sunday...*hopefully*

to have finished the header (and many versions of it for that matter) have lifted my spirits somewhat...now my problem consist of introdb mp, anmath, and miscellaneous other subjects, the iframe thingie (whatever it is i will know later on as i research on that.)
i feel incomplete with longing *what a sap am i*
i stopped by the church like i always do and lit 2 candles, and to think i was afraid of fire and heat. (painful memories of being burned in the chest, i want to forget) and stared at the wispy flames billowing from the hot winds of the post summer atmosphere ( i know its june but it's still sunny, humid and feels like summer, which makes us feel we are being sent to school early, but we're not, but we are (the lasallians anyway) )
*scratches head* team building will be tomorrow. and remembering i have to wake up at the crack of dawn because of it brings a scowl to my already disgruntled face. not to mention the head honchos will be there...*shrudder*
i need caffeine...
but i might settle for hot tea with milk and sugar...haay
oh and roast beef and wanton noodles at waiying
*yum*yum*
i better look at those i frames....

this morning plagued me. i woke up feeling okay, then the evil spirit lurks and moans to my ear, wrecking my whole day.
but, i have to remember...

to err is human, to forgive divine
-alexander pope

i have to go.

brain malfunctions as i sit and stare at the white blog screen.
*yawn* i can't sleep yet. not yet. not now. i still haven't found what i'm looking for
*sleepy*
lecheng assignment to ah....
i just need to look for soccer pictures....
(okay i know you're going ^^;; mode now heheheh)
wala na nonsense na sobra
baboosh and off i go.

i just finished my network paper ( 1 page of runaround information that still makes sense, and is decent enough to pass to my proffie). i had this weird habit of saying "fun" after every sentence in reply today. it drove vetz up the wall. hehe
vetz : blah blah blah blah yadayadayada.
me : fun
mik: blah blah blah blah
me : fun
and as well as my blogs are the only working stuff in my site. i had numerous attempts to update this today and last week. but kept procrastinating (? wah? tama ba spelling?) aaaaah wtf slacking off would be a better term.
as my keyboard booms and echoes into the silent background and i heard the wails of an evil spirit...i bid you good night...

i have to keep a restrain to myself not to post my new poems here, as i keep on thinking for a better layout for my site. school has started. and this will be a pathetic school year. the first day was okay. the first day of a school night is the shittiest night of my life. and it has harden and solidified my past perspectives to stone. no, not the assignments, no they didn't gave out mp's to be due next week. and anmath isn't really in my top priorities right now. i will fix up my messed up life, and this is not for the person who keeps on caging me to become the way i am, and to become who i want to be. who wouldn't let me fly. who won't let me be me. i'm not free, and i will never be free. as long as i'm held with a restraining order.
someday i will be free. and when i'm free, i will fly.
"please hold on, i think i'm falling, i'm holding on to all i think is safe, it seemed i found the road to nowhere, and i'm trying to escape".